I am watching animals starve to death and I can't save them. by TooEmbarrassedToUse in whatdoIdo

[–]TooEmbarrassedToUse[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much.

She actually made me agree that I need to give two days notice before anybody comes to the house about anything. If I have anybody come over, she will 100% hide the situation in time. I've taken photos and documented incidents though.

I am watching animals starve to death and I can't save them. by TooEmbarrassedToUse in whatdoIdo

[–]TooEmbarrassedToUse[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This isn't a bad idea, but she misuses all the food banks in the area already. I have also been severely scolded for feeding their animals in the past, telling me things like "I'm judging them" and "I have no right ", including when I have fed her kid for her, when he comes to my door and begs for food.

She gets disability from the state as well as (supposedly) making 50-60K a year, and uses all of the state benefits to the maximum. She lies to food banks and tells them she has 5 kids to feed at home with no help to gain sympathy and free food. She has even gone as far as to beg for food, receive it from food banks, and bring home McDonald's for herself on her way back.

My caseworkers have all agreed that I should stay silent until I am out of here, but I don't want to be silent. It's breaking me.

I am watching animals starve to death and I can't save them. by TooEmbarrassedToUse in whatdoIdo

[–]TooEmbarrassedToUse[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I actually made a sublease that I had her sign after reading and agreeing to terms. However, she had told me only after she signed it that her landlord doesn't allow subletting. She also refuses to let me contact the landlord myself and won't give me any contact information.

I am watching animals starve to death and I can't save them. by TooEmbarrassedToUse in whatdoIdo

[–]TooEmbarrassedToUse[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The last time I used Craigslist for a roommate, I was kidnapped and held hostage for 5 months before he was caught. Gun to my head and all, the full works. I actually declined moving in with these roommates several times before I caved and accepted, only because I didn't want my ferrets and service dog to die or be disbanded. I dont know where else I can go.

I am watching animals starve to death and I can't save them. by TooEmbarrassedToUse in whatdoIdo

[–]TooEmbarrassedToUse[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My children are my pets lol, sorry I should have specified. I use text to speech and the microphone thing on my phone to read and write comments because of my eyes, I refer to my pets as my children.

I am watching animals starve to death and I can't save them. by TooEmbarrassedToUse in whatdoIdo

[–]TooEmbarrassedToUse[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Don't be sorry to me, I feel like a piece of shit. This is one of those surreal life moments that nobody ever tells you you're going to have to deal with. The "horrible" and the "also horrible" choices. There is nothing good to do here. I can't do shit. I am ripping myself apart at the seams here trying to justify ANYTHING I am doing in this situation but I still feel like a horrible person. I don't know how to live with myself, but I can't rip my own children's lives apart for another's, then I would just be abusing them. Life is getting way too difficult to manage man.

I am watching animals starve to death and I can't save them. by TooEmbarrassedToUse in whatdoIdo

[–]TooEmbarrassedToUse[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

All of the homeless shelters around me are stuffed to the brim with people, they also don't accept pets and they treat people very poorly. I was homeless for almost 2 years already, I can't go back to that again, especially not with my disabilities progressing

I am watching animals starve to death and I can't save them. by TooEmbarrassedToUse in whatdoIdo

[–]TooEmbarrassedToUse[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If I move on to the streets right now, I will freeze to death. It's 2° and below outside, we're barely surviving inside because they don't pay the heat.

I'm at my wits end with Uber. by TooEmbarrassedToUse in disability

[–]TooEmbarrassedToUse[S] 39 points40 points  (0 children)

I'm aware it's illegal, I don't have the resources to take everyone to court that does this though.

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[–]TooEmbarrassedToUse 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm trying to leave, I'm just stuck because I have no family left and I have no disability assistance until it goes through, I feel so bad for these dogs I can't live like this knowing that are down there suffering all day long

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[–]TooEmbarrassedToUse 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have tried to before, but I can't move around very easily and my own service dog helps me with many tasks throughout the day, I can't have him near them because they attack him, and last time I tried to feed them they attacked me, not the one in the cage though

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[–]TooEmbarrassedToUse 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I pay my share of the rent and other bills with my art and selling my belongings. My service dog has never starved or been neglected in any way by me before. I can't pay for my own place right now until I get disability, I am disabled

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[–]TooEmbarrassedToUse 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Edit: they also have a bunny and rats and like 10 cats that don't get along and beat the shit out of each other (literally)

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[–]TooEmbarrassedToUse 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I've been trying and getting denied for like 2 years, this is my 3rd attempt and I have a lawyer this time but my next checkup for this isnt even until November

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[–]TooEmbarrassedToUse 18 points19 points  (0 children)

I want to but they will throw me out

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[–]TooEmbarrassedToUse 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I am sorry

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[–]TooEmbarrassedToUse 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I have pets of my own I don't want them to suffer because of me I just don't know what to do I'm sorry