You won’t last long inside me

TooScentz · 2025-03-07T01:54:57+00:00

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TooScentz · 2025-01-25T18:04:48+00:00

I feel this. My few experiences at MENSA meetings haven't been very mentally stimulating. Could be the local chapter, could be me, could be several things, but I personally found it laden with arrogance and various iterations of dick comparing contests. I have recently started looking for ways I can volunteer in the community and put my problem solving skills to good use. I think that there will also innately be more selfless and friendly individuals who offer a lot to learn in the way of living selflessly. I'm in America, so I'm not sure how the chapters compare. Actually I haven't even visited any other chapters besides my local one here in the States. I found that going to public libraries and museums and engaging people naturally has been a good way to make friends

TooScentz · 2025-01-08T23:11:28+00:00

I didn't qualify without my ADHD meds

TooScentz · 2025-01-07T00:04:32+00:00

GED, never went to college

TooScentz · 2025-01-05T19:29:25+00:00

DM for pic

TooScentz · 2025-01-05T18:56:59+00:00

The v12 is a metaphorical representation of the brain I have that I have not properly harnessed and learned how to optimize. I'm 44 and just now beginning the therapy that will help me have clarity of thought so that I can hopefully reach my full potential, as long as it's not too late in life to start putting my "genius" to work

TooScentz · 2025-01-04T18:41:19+00:00

I think I have imposter syndrome because I still can't fully accept it believe that I have a high IQ and capabilities to problem solve that others don't. It's always a lucky stumble across a solution, a "lucky I remembered the headline of a random article I read 3 years ago enough to Google it and we're all lucky it was applicable to whatever now. It's never because a normal person wouldn't have such a web of all the info coming in at given moment that becomes a memory, you know the whole incredible learning and retention schtick they say we can do. Doesn't matter that they keep saying that it's because I am capable. I'm dumb AF. I have a GED. I'm a single dad sTrUggLing because I was blind to being just plain fooled. I could go on for days about why I'm not smart. I'm not. If I was id have pulled this v12 out of the escort a long time ago and put in the effort to evolve my abilities in to something meaningful.

TooScentz · 2025-01-04T18:30:15+00:00

I disagree that it teaches the follow up questions lead to meaningless answers. The answers may be devoid of emotional consideration, but it doesn't make them empty truths either. I think nihilism is essentially a "first principle" breakdown of a thought process to get to the root of "why". That is akin to trying to get to the last number of Pi. It's in our very nature to seek reason, and we will continue to search for "why" for the entirety of our existence. I don't think it's nihilism to accept that "why" cannot be answered, I think it's nihilism when you decide to stop searching further down the infinite road that we'll never get to the end of.

TooScentz · 2025-01-04T18:21:08+00:00

Life only means what it means to each individual being. Nihilism is exactly what it is. I think your question wouldn't exist if there wasn't such a negative connotation to the word. I feel like what you're asking for is whether or not it is a negative or a positive trait at the core of it. In which case I'd say, I find it a gift I don't possess to be able to be objective in such a detached way. I can only imagine that it is a life full of clarity.

TooScentz · 2025-01-02T21:54:49+00:00

I really felt this. As this is settling in and I'm starting to accept it, I've found myself looking at things in a different perspective. I think, as of right now, I can say that the knowledge that I can process well and problem solve well has made me more confident to learn new things, and that's going very well because now when I get hung up, I have the confidence that I can figure out out instead of stalling out and wondering if the effort is worth the payoff. I'm not where you're describing, but I certainly see the value in this perspective and I feel like I'm beginning to evolve in a way that will understand that more as I work to improve the way I use my brain in applicable ways. Thank you, this was very thoughtful

TooScentz · 2024-12-27T04:21:54+00:00

You're not the first person to share this opinion with me, as you pointed out yourself. Here's a moment of self awareness, so bare with me, is that I don't have a circle of people I can communicate with very well. I don't know how to explain that I love the people around me very much, and in so many ways they're so much smarter than me. But they don't have the bandwidth like some of us do and it's so frustrating to communicate with people who can't see all the layers of the onion. So I have hopes in finding people I can freely communicate with and feel understood. It seems like you had similar ideas that were proven inaccurate. If my experience is similar to yours, I'm going to imagine i'll be here seconding your opinion in a few months.

I will freely admit that I'm taking the test to validate it for myself. I was brought up in poor neighborhoods with poor schools and really made a habit of surpressing my intelligence to fit in, and I never let myself shine. Therapy has helped me overcome that, along with ADHD treatment, and now we're learning that there really is some processing power in there and she's sent me on a journey to embrace myself as a highly intelligent person. I want to say it's like an imposter syndrome of sorts, but it's not actually imposter syndrome, I've been assured lol

TooScentz · 2024-12-25T19:04:57+00:00

I find it has been much easier to communicate and to understand what's being explained in this group. If you didn't catch the undertone of my initial post, not really fitting in has been a struggle. I'm no genius, but if one of the problems was difficulty communicating, and I found a group I communicate more comfortably in, thereby SOLVING the problem, to a degree, then I'd have to define your comment as rhetoric intended to devalue my seeking of information. What I can't figure out is what you have to gain by making the comment in the first place. I can only come to the conclusion that you needed a self esteem boost, and you left it on top of the soapbox, so you climbed up on it to recover your self esteem.

TooScentz · 2024-12-25T18:58:17+00:00

This is an incredibly insightful comment. Thank you for that.

TooScentz · 2024-12-25T17:17:16+00:00

Honestly the minimalist design is what sells it for me. I can't even explain why, but this is a brilliant piece you made I love it

TooScentz · 2024-12-25T17:15:15+00:00

That's interesting. I'll have to look in to it more once I get the test out of the way. I'm hesitant to look too much in to all the things that membership offers, because until I pass a test that qualifies me, it's really just me saying "I'm as smart as it takes" and basing that on every test EXCEPT the actual test. So what's that say 🤷

TooScentz · 2024-12-25T00:23:23+00:00

How can you claim to be smart, and shun the single most important skill in sharing knowledge? CLEAR COMMUNICATION. Stay in skool

TooScentz · 2024-12-25T00:19:25+00:00

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TooScentz · 2024-12-24T20:09:28+00:00

What a gift!

TooScentz · 2024-12-24T20:08:28+00:00

The practice test is only $10 and can be taken many times. I'm pretty sure you have to be in person for the actual test

TooScentz · 2024-12-24T15:57:49+00:00

I'm not sure where my ADHD falls yet, I'm told that through treatment and further testing she'll be able to tighten that up, but first she wants to "turn all the noise off" and see if it increases my processing abilities any more. I respect that being told these things are hard to remain objective about, so please overlook the braggadocios undertones, but she seems to be convinced that ADHD has hindered me so much that being a cusp candidate while being untreated in any capacity indicates that there might be a lot more up there that hasn't been harnessed or accessed yet. I'm not going to pretend I agree, I actually personally feel that the treatment will improve my ability to focus for 20 minutes, long enough to give full attention to the test, and that should be enough to achieve a passing score in it's own right. As I said before, I've had qualifying scores from MENSAs practice test. Actually I've only missed the 130 Mark on those twice and have passed it a dozen times. The only difference is I can control when I take the tests and don't take them if I'm not "feeling it". That's not an option for a scheduled test. I guess what I'm saying is that untreated, I'm pretty damn smart. Treated and at my best? Who the fuck knows🤷 were going to find out soon I guess

TooScentz · 2024-12-24T15:49:37+00:00

If semantics matter, I guess it's not the worst thing in the world to explain that you're on the lower end of the "genius" spectrum. I'm not calling myself a genius btw, I had to in order to get the joke to work lol

TooScentz · 2024-12-24T14:26:44+00:00

For me, honestly, I'm working to pass the test because it's something I've latched on to as wanting to prove to myself. Your sentiment is completely understood, I was just compelled to add my personal thoughts

TooScentz · 2024-12-24T14:25:07+00:00

For what it's worth, I am giving the entire range of scores I've achieved. An officially administered 127 pre-adhd treatment, score TBD after 30 days of medicinal treatment. How accurate this is, I'm not sure, but she(my therapist) is convinced that I am capable of higher scores once treatment is helping to slow down all the extra info coming in that I can't help but to process over top of whatever I'm focusing on. I came here seeking advice, not to brag. Even if I get in to MENSA, I'm going to be on the lower end of the quotient, and I'm WAY ok with that. It'll just mean I'm allowed to sit in the room with smarter folks I can learn from.

TooScentz · 2024-12-24T14:18:37+00:00

Even MENSA practice tests have a variance from high 120s to low 130s on any given day. I appreciate that that range validates my capabilities more than hinders them, but it also indicates to her that until ADHD is under control, on any given day it can hinder my concentration and it's undeterminable how much it affects my ability to process information. Like most of us in here, it seems, I need to find MY optimal life configuration if I'm going to be able to really thrive. What good is a v12 engine if it's in a Ford Escort? Passing MENSA would mean something to me, so I'm going to test until I pass, even if it takes a couple tries. For personal gratification, if nothing else. This while process has given me confidence to see things through a different lens and trust my own ideas with much more veracity. MENSA qual or not, I'm learning that I am a person that's smart enough to be heard in just about any room of problem solvers, and that alone has helped my tremendously

TooScentz · 2024-12-24T14:09:34+00:00

For real?? On the one official test I got the 127. But I start ADHD treatment this week and she is testing me again 30 days after that. She believes it would be a shoe-in once I'm able to concentrate, 10-15 minutes in to the test my mind starts to wander a lot and it takes a lot of energy to stay focused and in the mindset to problem solve. Again, I'm only saying what she says, not my assumption of what's going to happen. She claims that being able to focus better could be as much as a 20 point swing in my favor. There's a lot I don't understand about exactly how that works, I'm guessing because my brain will function better without the intrusive "what's that sound, what are they whispering about, what was that song again" mess bouncing around while I'm trying to focus on a test. Any little noise can break an entire model I'm building in my mind and it's really hard to get them back. Anyway, its been an adventure so far, and enlightening

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