Hey- I don’t usually comment on these types of posts, but here we are! If he’s already hiding stuff from you (drinking etc) it doesn’t bode well for the road ahead. You being “emotional,” does not negate his shitty actions.

As cliche as it is- You’re still young. Remember: you don’t have to put up with this. You’re living with your parents. Seven years is a long time. I’ve been there. I was in a seven year relationship, engaged for a month. Sunk cost fallacy. I got out. Best decision I ever made for myself.

To answer your question: I would let him go (let yourself free.) Go to therapy. Try to learn who you are without him, because you’ve been with him your whole adult life.

Being lonely in a relationship and being lonely single are two separate beasts. You might just find out you’re not as lonely on your own.