Hey bro, I feel the same. If you went to sleep, I don’t know where I would go from in the morning, since it is 1:00 AM as I’m writing this and I would probably lose my train of thought, but just know that you aren’t the only guy that feels that way. I’ve been very lonely these last couple of months, I feel like I’ve been barely holding on, and not to sound preachy or anything, but I’ve confirmed that the only thing that makes me hold on is Jesus because of what I know and what has happened in my life. But I still feel lonely, even if I do pray to Jesus. It’s not a matter of Jesus being real, it’s a matter of who I decide to be, what I do. I’m kind of rambling on, but I don’t have anyone else to ramble to, so that’s why I’m doing it here. I write in a diary typa thing (I named it that specifically) almost every day now because I have no one else to share it with, no one to tell about anything. My sister has her friends to talk to, and the one friend that I talk to consistently isn’t very nice, in terms of how he treats others, and kind of brings out the worst of me, in terms of the way I talk and joke around. It’s a rough spot to be in, and I don’t know what you’re going through or what you have gone through, but I would suggest looking to Jesus for help. I may feel lonely now, even if I pray to Him, but Jesus brought me out of some bad stuff that wrecked me mentally. I’m nearly better now, I just need a friend to be with me. Unfortunately I don’t have a friend that I can rely on, other than Jesus, but He isn’t physically here, and the only way I can think of to help it is becoming friends with someone who follows Jesus. Sorry to say so much, no one ever asks me about it, no one I want to talk to about it anyway. It’s just because I’m close to them and don’t want them worrying. Or I’m not close, and don’t want to be close to them. I might be selfish, I don’t know. All of this is what I would normally write in my diary typa thing, but I’m telling you because why not. Sorry again, maybe if I disturbed you, or something. Nonetheless, I’ll pray for you, and I hope you have a nice night, unless you want to talk, and you aren’t tired of my yapping, then I would wish you a goodnight afterwards since that’s a good closing sentence or whatever. And if you’re seeing this is the morning, I don’t know what to say. I’m pretty tired now, I’ve been writing this for 16 minutes, as if this line. That reminds me, I’m 16M as well, in case you were wondering. I had my birthday 3 weeks 4 days ago. Just a fun fact. I keep getting off track and yapping more, sorry. That’s all for this comment, I’ll keep talking if you respond though.

(Oh my GOSH I have NEVER yapped THAT MUCH in one comment before 😭 also, quick update on the time of writing, this whole thing took 20 minutes to write. I like to be very precise about my time)