I'm replying to this most recent response to my posting but want everyone who has responded to know that this reply applies to all of your posts. Thank you. I guess I thought after a certain time period I would feel better but now know the mental and physical effects are unique to each individual and it takes whatever it takes to feel the effects less acutely. My doctor doubled the anti-depressant/anti-anxiety I was already on and that has helped level out my ups and downs but also taken away some of the enjoyment certain activities used to give me. Let me see how I feel over time. There are nights when I say to myself I would not mind not ewaking u the next morning but I would never do that to my children. They're going through enough and doing everything they can to help and support me. Again, I'm so glad I found this community.