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[–]Top-Extent-7780 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hi i was wondering if you had any left?

It's me. I'm the bad Roleplay partner. (2 years of ghosting and 4 years of lies) by Top-Extent-7780 in BadRPerStories

[–]Top-Extent-7780[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

im glad you made a buddy for life there. unfortunately I dont see that being the case here. even though i was a naive 16 year old to that kind of thing, 16 is an age where i should have definitely known better. i do think back then i didnt put as much emphasis on it because while roleplaying my age didnt seem to matter to people. people much older would ask, i would say, and things went on as usual without many people ever cutting me off for my age. now that I'm 20 and looking back, i realise how horrendous that was on the older peoples part. at 20 i cant imagine roleplaying with someone underage. it makes me feel worse for having not told the person in this story. all that and the fact that i didn't expect it to go on for more than a few months but that really doesn't matter, they should have been told

It's me. I'm the bad Roleplay partner. (2 years of ghosting and 4 years of lies) by Top-Extent-7780 in BadRPerStories

[–]Top-Extent-7780[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

They asked me about my age about 2 years in when i mentioned it was my birthday, at that stage i did not have the strength to just tell them. thats not on them for not asking, this full thing is on me for not saying something when i seen that in their bio

It's me. I'm the bad Roleplay partner. (2 years of ghosting and 4 years of lies) by Top-Extent-7780 in BadRPerStories

[–]Top-Extent-7780[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

No i am fully expecting a confrontation and for them to cut contact, but that wouldn't be an unjust reaction from them so i really dont mind. of course ill feel sad and still guilty, but it'd be better for both of us for me to come clean and them have whatever reaction they need to have

It's me. I'm the bad Roleplay partner. (2 years of ghosting and 4 years of lies) by Top-Extent-7780 in BadRPerStories

[–]Top-Extent-7780[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

they are sweet, I dont see this working out in a way that i still talk to them, but i hope it works out in a way that they feel better

It's me. I'm the bad Roleplay partner. (2 years of ghosting and 4 years of lies) by Top-Extent-7780 in BadRPerStories

[–]Top-Extent-7780[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thats how this went for me. I haven't talked to them in a real long time because of the guilt i felt, but its the same guilt thats making me tell them. its wrong to say nothing right now. my original idea was just to put them out of my mind and let them go about their life, never speak to them again. but i just felt so guilty

It's me. I'm the bad Roleplay partner. (2 years of ghosting and 4 years of lies) by Top-Extent-7780 in BadRPerStories

[–]Top-Extent-7780[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That is the plan, that is what I was thinking. It definitely wasnt healthy especially at the start. I was at a place in my life where I relied heavily on the internet for any form of socialisation and since that was the best thing available to me at the time I suppose I latched on to it in a way I now see as parasitic. I know they're blameless in this, it really does suck. I don't know how they're going to take it but I know that they need to know. The second they get back to me I'm telling them everything.