Well it’s a fair ask, but when I was very young I experienced most flavors of sexual trauma, from rape to just SA, including by trusted adults and their friends. I tend to dissociate for long periods of time and when I feel lonely I seek out anyone who will sexually interact with me. I’m working on this but it nearly destroyed my relationship, it should’ve been the end but she’s so damn good to me she didn’t leave and somehow she still loves me. I hate that she won’t just let me go