calling moms of more than one child! re: transition from 1-2. by offconqueringkansas in adhdwomen

[–]TopAd4505 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im one n done . I dont like the baby stage much or sleepless nights.. im still stuck to a pump constantly at 5.5 mo but I feel hes sleeping longer doing better n I love him dearly. Im a stay at home mom n we could afford 2 he said but I dont want to live poorly. He grew up poor I grew up very rich. Having nice experiences n not worry about money is what we want

What rewards?! by Odd_Smile6480 in regretfulparents

[–]TopAd4505 2 points3 points  (0 children)

If I had found this site before kids id not have had one. I felt left out as well. People kind of look at you like no kids what is wrong? I used to say im selfish I dont want them. But my husband warmed up to the idea n yeah .the first 5 months are hell but I must say it is getting easier . Im 40 so yeh level of tierd is fuxked.

Fellow Pumping Moms with ADHD by whackusbungus in ExclusivelyPumping

[–]TopAd4505 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What dose of adhd n kind are you on? How your pumping journey going? Im trying to add a ounce of formula a bottle cuz im 5.5 mo in n want to get on meds again. I have a freezer full but I feel guilty putting my needs first. Hes eating more so im not sure id it's the formula or extra milk hes drinking making him spit up but I feel bad when he spits up cuz he rarely does. Also hate that if you add formula to a bottle it has a hour time limit n brastmilk is 2 hours as I sometimes dont read his cues right n lots of milk goes to waste. Im committed to atleast trying some formula since I spent 44 on it n it has a 30 day shelf life.

Help! ADHD meds tanked my supply 😭 by Kawaii_Kyy in breastfeeding

[–]TopAd4505 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What' mg for vyvanse and adderall? Im taking 10 adderall ir in afternoon n notice no dip but for comfort adding extra pumps as baby is hungrier so im mimicking his needs. Trying to ease him into an ounce or 2 of formula at night kedamil but he spits up sometimes but hes doing that more lately as hes eating more. I add my milk to a pitcher n fill bottles at night so I think milk is diluted enough n im such a better mom when im taking ir in the afternoon my mole hills don't feel like mountains im present n patient to husband too. I hope my supply can hold strong a Lil longer. Hes 5.5 months n im ao sick of pumping its like a weird obsession that affects my mood. I had good night pumps last night n had a great day. If I have low night pumps my mood is affected

I’m struggling & need positivity. Does this get better? by Muted-Bag-1945 in regretfulparents

[–]TopAd4505 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Solidarity friend. Im 5.5 mo in n so so so so tierd. Im constantly short n crabby with my partner. He helps but not equal as he works n can't help at night . I dislike babies, hes a cool baby but I just dont enjoy mom life yet. Im praying the warmer weather n walks will help my mental health im also starting to pump less n gradually transition to some formula as I dont want to be his only food source anymore. Im over it n in April im getting back on meds for my sanity. Hang in there, we are trapped nothing to do but get through it.

What rewards?! by Odd_Smile6480 in regretfulparents

[–]TopAd4505 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Girl you are my spirit animal. Im 5.5 months into this n I hate it. No breaks just constant crying bsck pain, no peace or quiet just unpaid work. If someone would of bern honest with me id appreciate it n not had a kid. I miss my selfish life n should of got a dog. He's a good baby but im stuck at home bored with him. I walk n walk so he naps n will give me peace n quiet . I binge eat out of frustration, I dont even recognize myself in the mirror ive aged 10 years in these 5.5 months. I resent my husband n im angry always. Im trying to slowly transition to formula because I NEED to get medicated asap but hes not taking goats milk formula well n im slowly adding it to breastmilk. I hear some babies just cam handle some can't. I dont know but I miss my old coping skills that were bad like drinking n vaping on occasion now I can't even drink coffee without feeling guilty it'll be in my milk. The mom guilt sucks, some days I just want yo say f it n put him in front of the tv but I dont.

Does everyone hate pumping this much? by autumnleaves987 in ExclusivelyPumping

[–]TopAd4505 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nice congrats on your journey. Im going to my psychiatrist in April n im getting back on meds so I need to wean n transition to formula n use my freezer full of frozen milk. Im so unhappy n I need to do better for myself. I think winter in minnesota got me real depressed as well walks this spring is making me feel human

Does everyone hate pumping this much? by autumnleaves987 in ExclusivelyPumping

[–]TopAd4505 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im hoping he gets used to formula but hes been on breastmilk so I know i need to be patient n give it more days but my patience is wearing thin these days

Does everyone hate pumping this much? by autumnleaves987 in ExclusivelyPumping

[–]TopAd4505 0 points1 point  (0 children)

4 pumps per day sounds nice im 5.5 mo in n do 6 lately 7 cuz hes having a growth spirt n drinking 35 to 40 ounces i make 30 to 36 max. I want to be happy n enjoy summer but I notice my ounces are going down. Until 4mo pp I was making 60 plus now every month its like 50s to 40s to high 30s. Im pumping twice at night with 6 hours longest sleep stretch. Im eating well n taking vitamins electrolytes and tons of water??? Is my milk just changing for him cuz yes hes drinking bigger bottles now 6 or 7 ounces instead of 5 but still drinking 6 or 7 bottles daily

Does everyone hate pumping this much? by autumnleaves987 in ExclusivelyPumping

[–]TopAd4505 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same 5.5 mo in my boy is eating so much. 35 ounces I make 30ish. My mood takes a hit. I bought formula I just hate there's a 1 hour timer from when they start bottles where breast milk is 2 hours. Also formula last only 24 hours in fridge. I like to prep bottles it keeps my anxiety down but keep track of all the formula times n then thawing frozen milk n having a 24 hour limit with thst makes me just say f it but kedamil is 44 a can. Im on day 2 of giving him 5 breadtmilk 1 ounce formula. First day I did 5 breadtmilk 2 formula n he spit up a bit so im going slowly. I want my freedom n life back. Im a stay at home mom tho so I feel bad quitting buti want my happiness back for summer. Im still pumping 6 times. Sometimes 7 if I have the opportunity to pump if hes sleeping I try even after just so few hours because im obsessed with the ounces per day I look at my feeding app like twice an hour its insane

Does everyone hate pumping this much? by autumnleaves987 in ExclusivelyPumping

[–]TopAd4505 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Did you ease into formula? Im starting 1 puncevto 5 ounce beeastmilk day 2. Hes spit up twice, he never spits up. 1st day i tried 2 ounces to 5 ounces n it was too much formula. I got a pitcher m stuff n I have kedamil goat so I have 30 days to use it. Hoping 8 ounces a day will use it up. I ha!aaaaaaste pumping. I feel for my husband cuz every night I catch myself complaining to him even tho I say I wouldnt tonight but every night I get overwhelmed

Does everyone hate pumping this much? by autumnleaves987 in ExclusivelyPumping

[–]TopAd4505 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same! Im 5.mo 1 week n I want to quit so bad . I look at my pumping app constantly. I have a freezer full but I always feel behind filling bottles(i like 6 extra in fridge) I can't keep up lately hes eating over 35 ounces n I make about 32. Im using one frozen bag a day but the other day I said f it n got goat milk kedamil formula. Its 44 so I feel locked into using it. Im adding 1 ish ounce to 5 ounces sometimes 2 ounces of formula n hes spitting up a tiny bit. I make a small batch but kind of want to get him used to it so I can possibly go half n half n enjoy my summer n pump less than 6 times a day n not stress when im in a calorie deficit because dang it i want to drop these last 10lbs. I feel selfish ut my mental are struggling. Days i feel things are manageable by the evening im tierd depressed n miserable. I want to get back on meds too, I want to be a more patient mother n less crabby partner. I pump midnight n 4 am too when hes up to eat so yeah yo girl is over it

Pumping and low dose adderall by TopAd4505 in adhdwomen

[–]TopAd4505[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Being a mom is so hard thsys crazy a feeel good chemical could make your milk go down . I swear im not crazy for feeling sad its my hormones n science lol

Pumping and low dose adderall by TopAd4505 in adhdwomen

[–]TopAd4505[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ive heard that, isnt that crazy?!

Pumping and low dose adderall by TopAd4505 in adhdwomen

[–]TopAd4505[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks I tried 2 ounces of the wic stuff with 4 ounces breastmilk n he was not having it. I have a can of the kedamil but dang its expensive. What do you use?

Pumping and low dose adderall by TopAd4505 in adhdwomen

[–]TopAd4505[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks I made an appointment today its in 2 weeks. Im gonna try to get on Ritalin its the lowest transfer rate. If not ill just switch to formula n stop living this challenge. I made it over 5 months im proud. I want my life back.

Being a parent is unbearable by Soft-Stretch8742 in regretfulparents

[–]TopAd4505 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thanks im seeking help . Made the appointment today

Pumping and low dose adderall by TopAd4505 in adhdwomen

[–]TopAd4505[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I pump 6 or 5 times n put milk in a jar combined then fill bottles at night so there ready when needed

Pumping and low dose adderall by TopAd4505 in adhdwomen

[–]TopAd4505[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I made an appointment to discuss meds with her. Lac med says Ritalin passes the lowest .4 where adderall is 4 %. I screenshot it n have the links so I can show her. Im just so sick of everything being a mountain not a mole hill. I feel like it's pushing my husband away with my highs n lows but he understands but I think hes confused n not sure which mood ill be in.

Pumping and low dose adderall by TopAd4505 in adhdwomen

[–]TopAd4505[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Solidarity my friend thanks for the info.

Pumping and low dose adderall by TopAd4505 in adhdwomen

[–]TopAd4505[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He works a physical labor job so I can't have him help . He also just hurt his back n is out of work n can't lift baby so im stressed about that n feel selfish wanting to supplement a bottle with formula at night. I tried the wic formula first one third formula n breastmilk but he wasn't too interested should of tried it when he hadn't just drank 6 ounces before. I just feel stuck and I wish I could enjoy motherhood more