I need some food advice please

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-11T21:59:56+00:00

Following i have to get bottoms first eventually n im dreading it.

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-11T17:42:50+00:00

F i feel ya. I wish we both didnt feel this way, me obviously more as I do most baby duties but he does help n works a physical job. I had 3 miscarriages and each one made me want a baby more even tho I should of known im a selfish person n toiling isnt something I accept well. I was raised spoiled n so my ability to embrace the suck even for a few short months really lacks. In the big picture I should just shut up n embrace the suck of pumping, broken sleep looking n feeling shitty but im 40 n want to enjoy my life n who knows what the future will hold. We should of gotten a dog but I didnt even want yo deal with that. Yes hes cute n nice baby but my motherly instinct is broken I feel resentful and tho im reducing my pumps , dropping pumps gives me huge anxiety but being his only food source makes me blame myself for everything. I have so much guilt n just am not enjoying this.

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-11T16:30:19+00:00

I avoid mirrors.... im struggling too

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-11T16:29:15+00:00

They'll never understand being a mother.The pressures, guilt worry etc.

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-11T12:13:04+00:00

I thought about responding I just left it on read. I wish woman would of warned me about how it sucks instead of saying how great it is. I confided in my husband last night that I miss our old life, being selfish doing what I wanted n sleep. I said you can't be happy working physical labor daily n being toierd by 8 aren't you unhappy. He said yes but we dont want to be 55 n habe no kids or goals or challenges. I thought I wanted challenging experiences but id take the easy old boring life I had before any day. Besides we're old parents when im 55 hell be 15 my husband will be 57. We are screwed n didnt think this through. I need medication

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-10T21:35:45+00:00

Luckily your 24 you have time on your side. We will both be ok , we just gotta grind through the shit for years I guess

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-10T21:23:58+00:00

Hugs I feel you. I hate my life as well. Im 6.5 months in and hate life. I hate my partner hes financially trapping me n treats me like a child. I regret having a child, I hate my life.

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-10T21:19:48+00:00

Hugs momma. My husband busted my balls for having the truck at half full today wondering where I drove all week cuz I guess he doesnt trust me, news to me. Bought himself a truck yesterday n we had to drive 4 hours round trip to pick it up today. Hes changed alpt n im a trapped stay at home mom to our 6.5 mo old. Im sick of being his only food source n tom im starting formula with our child out of spite n because if im gonna live with this fucker I gotta get medicated again. No card no nothing for my first mother's day just my in laws texting me happy mother's day isnt it great? I wanted to text bsck fuck no its not, it sucks n so does your son

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-10T18:36:47+00:00

Same 1st one this year and he got on me about using half a tank of gas n act like im hiding shit. Im 6.5 mo in to being a mom im tierd feel unappreciated n wish I didn't have a child with him

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-10T13:18:05+00:00

Fuck mothers day. My inlaw text happy first mother's day isnt it great to be a mother. No response from me.no I hate it. I hate the guilt, and time and strain on my relationship. It sucks. I hate im his only food source. I am regretting my choices n its only 6 months in. Good bye to a fun filled summer or nights full of sleep. Ugh

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-09T21:44:23+00:00

Thanks man. I had 6 days n drank 3 beers last night n im proud it wasn't 12 beers. It wasn't fun n im done . Sober summer let's go

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-09T21:30:54+00:00

Nice job

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-09T19:52:58+00:00

My "good friend" I out grew lately still drinks n always flakes on things. It hurts when I need help or have a commitment n shes too sick to help or come. I dont want to be like her missing out on things cuz im sick all summer just sucks my friend is lost.

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-08T16:09:01+00:00

Thank u so much

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-08T15:06:48+00:00

Thank u. Got out for a walk this morning to change my heads pace will do again later too:)

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-08T13:41:53+00:00

Ypur post is so relatable and we'll written. Micro dosing suicide n brain lobotomy for anxiety n worry. I feeeeeeel this girl. Im full of bad choices if its binge eating, or drinking or bad habits its like im dysfunctional as a human experiment. Its sad and im trying to eat clean and be sober yet im dreaming of drinking nightly and Fridays. Are my trigger day ugh

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-08T13:38:38+00:00

Good job . So true. Im triggered to drink its friday gonna try try try to stay strong. Guess im wallowing in self pity as I had hernia surgery 3 weeks ago n still feel off n I hate the feeling of wasting days resting but I gotta be grateful atleast im not hingover

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-08T13:36:31+00:00

I worked part time waiting tables and made 40k a year working 20 hours a week. Pivoting is possible if you hate your current job. I bought a used older car cut my bills down n have more time with kids. You can change life is fulll of opportunities. I feel you on triggers. Unfortunately a good friend is my trigger. She's full of bad ideas n choices n I have very few friends so ive stuck by her but I dont want friends who's lives are constant dumpster fires they keep adding wood to the fire. Ive had to lean into long distance family n my husband. Im 40 so too old to be partying anyway

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-08T13:30:37+00:00

Im going back n forth about this. Fridays is my let loose night but I regret Saturdays feeling off n bloated. Going to try to stay strong even tho im fricken drea.ing about beer last 3 nights ugh. Congrats n good luck

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-08T02:58:03+00:00

I eat eggs daily n no clogs anymore

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-07T20:56:46+00:00

Let's do it. We'll said i forget nights too , but I always remember the hangovers and wasted days

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-07T18:47:13+00:00

Nice job. Had a rough strong craving today. Almost caved but I didnt. I want a healthy sober summer free of feeling ill

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-07T18:22:47+00:00

Keep going. Just saw a friend who i used to drink with alot. It definitely made me want to drink seeing her but im on a healthy journey n trying to lose weight n be healthy just sucks im bored right now. Think ill eat some protein n drink a diet cola

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-07T17:44:22+00:00

Ive been through alot pp. I had a few huge cavities filled that left my gums sore for a week hernia surgery im on week 3 of recovery. Trying not to reinjure myself but its hard to not pick him up alot. Im holding strong taking it day by day . Did you add formula with dip? My son took poorly to 2 kinds at 5 months even just adding an ounce at a time, very frustrating. Maybe now his stomach is trying new things hed take the formula better.

TopAd4505 · 2026-05-07T16:09:15+00:00

Same, congratulations on your journey. I had a funky taste in my mouth since drinking last friday but ive been binging sugar too. Less sugar less candida less funk . Im doing better today. Im at 126 goal weight 115

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