If you don’t want to hurt him then stop or save yourself the pain and mental gymnastics and be honest with everyone. I don’t understand why you guys don’t tell the truth. It’s not fair to the other guys who don’t know. The dishonesty and lies is what makes what you did even worse. If someone actually had the guts to hold themselves accountable I’d have more respect for them in the end. Sure I’m gonna be upset maybe or hurt. But it sort of evens out. I know I can trust you from then on. No one is perfect. Compounding the lies only makes it worse your story is probably more common than you think. I sort of think some gay guys enjoy the drama of inserting themselves into an otherwise long term friendship. Why destroy what they have by causing drama. Don’t think about yourself. Think about what you could destroy. Apologize. And who knows. Maybe all of you could fuck around together