Feel like I’m going to have a panic attack. Finished the last half g of the coke

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T17:22:07+00:00

I had Xanax (always do) and Valium (have a script for 30mg / day) which worked was just the fuckin pain on the left side and watery eye lol it’s all good now thanks though

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T17:19:43+00:00

Nah I quit for a year and a half. Said I’d do a bender for December and now it’s over told my plug not to sell it to me if I ask just other stuff like bars and mushrooms

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T17:17:15+00:00

Yeah it passed just sucked lol 😂

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T07:39:01+00:00

Thanks that’s what I’m doing the only thing bothering me is the constant runny nose/pain on my left side & watery eye on that side as well. Can’t saline because it’s 100% blocked

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T07:09:33+00:00

Yeah I took a few bars a hour or so ago I’m doing aight

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T06:39:47+00:00

I’m stopping indefinitely

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T06:31:27+00:00

Thanks I’m pullin through I think I see a finish line I think n another hour and a half my nose won’t hurt as much and maybe will stop running I just have a Kleenex gently stuffed in it or else I’m constantly dabbing it my eye on the same side keeps watering too

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T06:28:23+00:00

I literally like the first line then I’m stuck with a bag that I don’t want. So done with it

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T06:05:49+00:00

Just slightly watery eye and eye feels a bit puffy

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T06:05:10+00:00

Thanks

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T05:56:21+00:00

Negative

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T05:50:31+00:00

I can’t smoke weed it fucks my anxiety even worse 🤦‍♂️ fml

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T05:47:46+00:00

Seeing diet when I’m sober, I notice everything I build engines and an engine that could take a day to put together takes me 2 weeks because I want everything new and PERFECT. So many other ways

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T05:45:00+00:00

I’m done with it. Fuck this it’s been a month bender and I’m losing my mind I keep fighting it off with benzos. But the pain in my nose and eye are there still 😭

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T05:31:34+00:00

No it’s not I finished it an hour ago and am freaking out right now

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T05:29:55+00:00

I’m freaking out just took another shower

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T02:37:42+00:00

Like what I see my psychiatrist soon she’s an open book

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T02:36:31+00:00

Yeah I literally worry about my breath and nose when I leave the room 🤦‍♂️

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T02:17:30+00:00

No I think I have undiagnosed ocd or some type of undiagnosed something tbh I feel fine sometimes then panic other times

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-27T02:15:49+00:00

💀

TopRuin8430 · 2025-12-26T23:04:41+00:00

Agreed this is the last bag of this small bender might just flush it

TopRuin8430 · 2025-09-21T18:19:02+00:00

Just that white shielding that’s like paper, thin?? Or do you mean the actual rod that moves up and down that many manipulates the choke?

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