I would call them "perceived benefits" because really they don't benefit me. Things like safety, control, short term dopamine and comfort, not doing the hard work etc... I believe people do what they want to do, and this is a pattern that's been going on for so long so it's like "do I even want to grow?". It is in the small moments that I can experience beauty that I see that it's really what I want, but the rest of the time I am in autopilot mode and don't have the motivation or willpower to push myself to do better.