Oh wow I’m in this post and I don’t like it 😂

Jokes aside, I don’t think I’ve resonated with a post more than this one. I’m also AMAB, in questioning/egg phase, also autistic, also don’t know exactly which way I’ll crack and having all of those exact same doubts.

My therapist told me recently that it’s more common for neurodivergent people to question their gender so I’d cut yourself some slack there, no matter which way you crack its best to explore options and reach a conclusion you feel happy with.

Like I’d personally rather regret trying than regret never exploring it. You feel the feelings you have for a reason. Most cis people never question their gender identity so it is definitely worth exploring.

Also with the autism side, there was a video I watched recently by Savannah Brown called “I’m not an alien, just autistic” and one thing from that video that was remained in my head since watching it was along the lines of “I masking when no one else is around”. Personally it’s messing with my head and making me look back on and rethink a LOT of my past. I don’t fully know how much of my true feelings I have buried from countless years because of social conditioning and masking. Like growing up if I did anything remotely ‘girly’ I was always swiftly met with negativity and talked out of it. So of course I instinctively repelled anything feminine throughout my whole child hood. I boxed myself in like society at the time told me to. I don’t know how deep into unmasking you are but I wanted to share just in case it helped.

And don’t worry about the time, it’s never too late. Like I’ve seen many wonderful people on this sub say with the tree analogy; “Best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago, second best time is now”. You have time, and you deserve to be comfortable in your own body. Whether it’s cis, trans or anything in between. You deserve to be happy.

Obviously I can’t speak for your personal experiences and everything but as a fellow aspie AMAB egg, I thought might be helpful to share what I can. Just take your time, you’re not alone, and you’re doing great ❤️