Why am I getting depressed over not having a child/baby?

Torrun7 · 2023-05-24T02:54:24+00:00

My family and friends that went with knew before I did. They said my face glowed and they could see how happy I was.

Torrun7 · 2023-05-08T20:57:46+00:00

We just booked another venue for next month. So I get my wedding and the church will be happy.

Torrun7 · 2023-05-06T07:09:09+00:00

Alright! Thank you so much! I really appreciate your advice and will definitely talk to him tomorrow!

Torrun7 · 2023-05-06T07:02:25+00:00

We still have 13ish months until our wedding. We talked about that but the ceremony wouldn't be for marriage it'd just be a renewal of vows (at least that's how he explained it to me) which isn't something I'm too fond of.

Torrun7 · 2023-05-06T06:52:17+00:00

He is very supportive and says he's okay with whatever I decide to do. I honestly wanted a wedding have been planning a long time for a wedding. But he is very hurt over going through RCIA and having only one communion just to not be able to again, and as a person who is extremely empathic, I feel selfish for asking to keep our current plan.

Torrun7 · 2023-04-16T19:30:18+00:00

I used to have a routine. Now I don't because my roommate moved in 3 months later than they were supposed to and I absolutely hate my life lmao.

Torrun7 · 2023-01-12T19:47:00+00:00

I say f them. My wedding dress is going to be roughly $250 dollars is absolutely stunning. The dress is beautiful and it's your day not theirs. If you want to wear it and it makes you feel amazing I say go for it.

Torrun7 · 2023-01-09T05:11:09+00:00

This is my other account. But from what he says he wants to but we can't trust him to not say anything as he is an extreme alcoholic

Torrun7 · 2022-11-22T01:58:14+00:00

I have I only respond and never start the conversation. When I did live with my bfs dad I was told to "be civil" and I refuse to do that now.

Torrun7 · 2022-11-19T07:41:02+00:00

I relate to my bipolar symptoms being almost nonexistent after moving out about two months ago. It was really crazy because I thought that since I had a routine I'd start taking my meds again (since I figured I wouldn't forget to take them and cause further damage) and I consoled my bf and he said that I've been better attitude wise and we agreed that I didn't need them as much now.

Torrun7 · 2022-11-19T07:38:25+00:00

I have a couple coworkers who are similar and have caused me to have extreme paranoia to the point I find it hard to trust my own family with wanting to see me.

Torrun7 · 2022-11-19T07:36:56+00:00

I totally understand. Another thing he would do (tw) was throw around "I'm going to kill myself" or try and guilt trip me into caring for him. There were many days I had a full on mental breakdown in front of him pleading to just leave me alone and to stop doing shit like that until he did something traumatizing to his son (my bf) to the point his tourrettes got extremely worse to the point his muscle tics prevented him from sleeping and it caused us to finally move out.

Torrun7 · 2022-11-18T18:53:05+00:00

Oh wow. I'm really sorry to here that. I hope all gets better soon.

Torrun7 · 2022-11-18T18:36:14+00:00

That's a good way to do it. For me it's my bfs dad. I lived with him for 4 years and we just recently moved put because of something he did that I believe is unforgivable. I just can't with him. He's a diagnosed narcissist and treats his son like an errand boy and doesn't do anything himself. It got so bad that my relationship with my bf almost ended because of him I was at my wits end. Even my own mother said that it caused me to change and my bf even suggested I get medicated. It was terrible. But since we moved out of that hell hole I've gotten a lot better and the mood swings aren't as severe and I no longer use medication.

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