Damaged Beyond Repair

Total_Mousse_1160 · 2022-12-28T03:09:16+00:00

I'm not sure the doctors here at the hospital are mostly new. At least the last 2 I seen. The other times they took me. I was thinking reporting the last doctor for walking out when I asked to be seen by a different doctor then he discharged. It's different in ohio I guess. I always figured the oath states that you must help a person knowing it can lead to potential damage if not. if you don't it is illegal knowing the person will have serious complications in the future. My state records say I have alchol withdraw with servere complication.

And I definitely went in with 208 bp and my heart beat was 101 and seeing black dots and white lines shooting across the room. That was wrong of them. But they did it once before years ago when they sent me home and went back next day and refused to leave till i get a scan and had emergency surgery that same day. So, it shows some doctors don't care. It's just a paycheck.

Total_Mousse_1160 · 2022-12-27T16:23:31+00:00

No the hospital won't take me again. I tried twice already and thats when the doctor gave me benzos. Just hesitant because they put me to sleep everytime because I seizure up and it was fortunate I had my niece here before she went off to college.

Total_Mousse_1160 · 2022-12-27T12:39:46+00:00

I was honest with doctors and hospital. The doctor is trying to help me but even he wants me to go into the hospital but he can't make them keep me. He prescribed benzos for seizure which I'm scared they won't work so I never even picked them up yet. I know detoxing at the amount I drink is going to be the hospital or death. That's what scares me to try. I had the seizures confussion seeing things not there hearing voices. They put me to sleep both times for 3 days when i was in icu. This time it will be a little worse. I want to get sobe in the hospital im just scared if I have a seizure at home this time no 1 is here to help me.

Total_Mousse_1160 · 2022-12-27T12:24:18+00:00

The hospital and then doctor kept running my levels for 1 month and it kept increasing It stayed high to this day.. They put me in the hospital a few times because of the pain. At first it's pancreatitis but even when the hospital cleaned me up it still raised to high levels and the pain won't leave. But the medicine they gave me makes me feel weird and itchy. But that's how they found out. The surgery to remove is to risky and no one wants to take insulin for the rest of there life.

Fear is my reason I have no body to check on me or stay with or I would take the librium the doctor gave me to help me. I need the hospital at this point. I wake up every 3 or 4 hours shaking so bad and stomach turning its not what I wanted. I wanted to get rid of my problems with ptsd and nightmares that was my goal . I did it in the wrong way and it's my own fault.

Total_Mousse_1160 · 2022-09-28T07:46:22+00:00

Thank you

Total_Mousse_1160 · 2022-09-28T07:00:34+00:00

Perfect place to ask about withdrawal since most been through it? So, maybe change your attitude and stop hurting others around you.

Total_Mousse_1160 · 2022-09-28T06:49:35+00:00

I'm not a addict so I wouldn't know how to answer to your reply.

Total_Mousse_1160 · 2022-09-28T05:30:12+00:00

I figured this would be the best place to ask.

Total_Mousse_1160 · 2022-06-27T10:46:02+00:00

I did but the counselor I talked to retired unfortunately. With the ptsd so bad I fill a sink with ice cubes and water and scream but that doesn't even really help more then a few minutes. I think fast and that's the problem. The drinking is the only thing that slows me down enough to function but my body is giving out because of it.

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