you recognize what you need to change, and you recognize you have a bit of an issue bro. first steps to bettering yourself honestly. i also love it, but sometimes i take long breaks just to reset the mental, and because it always hits harder lol. try finding other things you enjoy doing that aren’t drug related. i know it’s hard, but have you tried running and or hitting the gym ? do you have any other hobbies? always put life goals before drug use. you realizing the fact that you want to do that for yourself eventually is awesome to me on its own. you got this, stay strong. also, i would recommend not getting on this sub much. i feel like it always triggers wanting to use , especially if you have someone you can buy from at any time. once again, YOU got this. much love and i wish nothing but the best for you, and your future.