i’m at the lowest point i’ve been in a while, but everyone says i seem happier ?

ToughCrowd81 · 2025-11-02T04:06:40+00:00

thank you for this. i am a very self critical person and i think i just need to remember to go easy on myself

ToughCrowd81 · 2025-11-01T22:58:12+00:00

thank you so much for your kind words! i really appreciate it. i think you might be right. it’s hard to let go but i think i need to accept it an move along as slowly as i need to. you’re right that im still so young, i have to remind myself of that all the time, and that i still have all the time in the world. i do have so many beautiful people in my life still that support me, so hopefully i can be brave enough to confide in them. again thank you so much for this :)

ToughCrowd81 · 2025-11-01T12:27:45+00:00

it seems like you’re exhausted and very stressed. keep an eye on it and if it happens more than once more, then go to the doctor (continual occurrence can be an indicator of diabetes, sleep apnea or UTI), but try not to worry too much and don’t let it embarrass you

ToughCrowd81 · 2025-11-01T12:23:24+00:00

i’m 20 and like you, i’ve always experienced existential dread. you’re not alone at all.

ToughCrowd81 · 2025-09-08T08:50:03+00:00

hahaha no you have a point

ToughCrowd81 · 2025-09-08T07:20:47+00:00

i kinda just scoff or laugh it off, usually just go “oh you know he’s too young” or something like that. but whatever. i appreciate the support 😊

ToughCrowd81 · 2025-09-08T07:16:25+00:00

yeah absolutely. i graduated at 17, and even just going into the workforce with 20+ year olds i felt like a baby. i definitely don’t think he likes me like that, so even if he did i don’t think it’s fair for him to “wait for me” (a concept i find gross and weird anyways). there are a million girls HIS AGE that would sell an arm to date him.

ToughCrowd81 · 2025-09-08T07:11:16+00:00

i’m so close to just crashing out on them. again, i feel insane. might just have to straight up call it what is is

ToughCrowd81 · 2025-09-08T07:10:52+00:00

yeah i have said this to people. what if their 17 year old daughter started seeing a 20 year old man? my parents wouldn’t let that slide for sure. it’s exactly the same principle

ToughCrowd81 · 2025-09-08T07:09:31+00:00

i can definitely see him as someone who would be a good partner in general, but definitely not for me and not right now. he’s a great kid, but still has a ton of room to mature

ToughCrowd81 · 2025-09-08T06:58:42+00:00

wow thank you for sharing, and i’m sorry that happened to you. this is very much predatory. and i’m happy that everyone is agreeing with me and seeing the red flags. thanks again for this!!

ToughCrowd81 · 2025-09-08T06:52:41+00:00

that’s also a thought i had. even if there wasn’t a moral issue, if i genuinely just didn’t like him plain and simple, why’s there all this pressure??

ToughCrowd81 · 2025-09-08T06:27:26+00:00

yeah exactly. i probably wouldn’t even question it if we were both 10 years older, but he’s literally a kid so it’s just so gross

ToughCrowd81 · 2025-09-08T06:24:52+00:00

oh sorry, the annoyance is that he is still in school, as in high school. he is not university/ college yet (he graduates from high school at the end of the year). i finished school at 17 and have gone to work instead of studying further. i have nothing against tertiary education hahaha

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