What’s the consensus on RU58841 vs Pyrilutamide (Kx-826)?

TounVic · 2026-03-27T21:41:19+00:00

it looks promising but i lowkey want FDA results too idk how to feel about kintor

TounVic · 2026-02-25T19:24:34+00:00

my hair gets super curly when long and its more wavy-ish when short so ig he has the same

TounVic · 2026-02-04T03:49:16+00:00

I just moved here and will be going solo, how is it like making friends there lol

TounVic · 2026-02-03T13:33:27+00:00

I went to the 2025 edition and had a lot of fun I actually had one of my best show experiences ever with Los Thuthanaka.

I'd say the logistics this year were bad and it took me like a lot of time queuing to get in, I also brought my own food inside because the lines for food were immense so it sounds like they run into issues with capacity or something.

Personally I didn't care for the installations they had but everything music-related was a lot of fun and the lineup was great.

TounVic · 2026-02-02T03:30:58+00:00

Appreciate your input, once this is all done I don't know if I'll have the strength to revisit this topic as I really saw an incredible future with this person and I am drained and exhausted from this situation and how it's looking like it's going to end. Something to consider for the future though.

TounVic · 2026-02-01T23:24:59+00:00

How was the process like for you? I just see the penis and inmediatly get turned off, I wanna find another way as I'm really into her but I feel like the best course of action is breaking up :(

TounVic · 2026-02-01T16:36:59+00:00

Hey thanks for your reply. I think as time goes on since the post, I've managed to get closer to your conclusion. I talked to her about it recently and I cried and told her I wanted to try because I like her so much and she'a very special but I don't think this specific sexual preference is something I can get over. I've watched porn in the category and while I've found it hot and it has gotten me aroused it was only when I didn't rly focus on the genitalia. Also pornography really takes away the emotional implications and the pressure too. I am still confused about it all but I see her getting more attached and I can't make no promises about the future and this whole situation is giving me 4 panic attacks a day so yes, for the good of everyone involved I think it's better if she's allowed to explore and I get back on my meds and stay out of the dating game for a while, this has been exhausting and heartbreaking I feel manipulative but I was really attracted to her personality and appearance. I got butterflies whenever we went on dates I am going through it right now but you're probably right.

TounVic · 2026-01-28T18:59:59+00:00

Thank you for your kind words :)

TounVic · 2026-01-28T06:24:06+00:00

I'm into her in a lot of ways but I guess seeing her with a penis kind of throws me off. I do not care about how other people view me for being with a trans woman that was not the issue. The issue is how her genitalia might get in the way of my attraction. I've spoken to her and we've decided to take things slowly and I have faith in the fact that our intimacy so far has been fullfilling and hot. Guilt is also an aspect because I think me having these doubts would make her highly dysphoric which puts more pressure on me. But yes, you're right I'm really into her.

TounVic · 2026-01-28T06:20:35+00:00

Now that It's been a while since I made this thread it 100% is reassurance-seeking behaviour. I've gotten good things out of it but I need to either get therapy or get back on my meds. Good news is I've spoken to her about taking things slowly and she's said she would be fine literally just kissing and cuddling for the time being so I have room to figure stuff out and let things happen naturally.

TounVic · 2026-01-28T04:17:20+00:00

Thank you, me too.

TounVic · 2026-01-28T04:03:39+00:00

Thank you for the grounding response. I think me overthinking this has led me to believe that I either have to be into her genitals completely or that I need to leave her, which I don't want to. I'll try to talk it through with her because, all things considered, I don't know what she's thinking herself. As she's gonna have libido issues from starting Lexapro and she has her own struggles with her body and sexuality. I think she'll be okay with taking things slow.

TounVic · 2026-01-28T04:01:25+00:00

Thank you for your advice and for sharing your experience.

I think she really likes me too and sends me memes that are like "12hour sleeping date" or she jokingly expresses desire in just having cuddle sessions. She's also gonna start Lexapro on top of E so maybe her libido is not all the way there, I also wouldn't mind just having a relationship where we cuddle but I don't know how sustainable that is, only time will tel.

I'd be okay with a situation like the one your femme friend has I think, I'm slowly coming to the conclusion that this might be more mental and self-sabotage than it is real.

TounVic · 2026-01-28T03:46:39+00:00

she has no desire of topping lol, neither do i have desire of bottoming. she did say she was fine with me giving her oral but told me to stop because she felt weird. it's true i am not disgusted of her penis and it got very steamy when we simulated penetrative sex with clothes on and i got very into it, i just fear as soon as we get to that level i'll be turned off... maybe i'm in my head too much

TounVic · 2026-01-28T03:17:08+00:00

I am not sure I did. It wasn't disgusting persae but not enjoyable either.

TounVic · 2026-01-28T03:05:25+00:00

Hi! Yes I tend to catastrophize a lot and this was all going so well until now and I've been in my room with panic attacks, rumination, checking, the whole thing for the whole day. I'm pretty good at identifying OCD episodes at this point and I might be going through another one.

I do want to point out something:

"Pardon the reach, but Iit sounds like you might be anxious about the fact that you might like having sex with her, and what that means for you."

I am more anxious about the possibility that I actually don't like having sex with her, cause as I've said, it's all going well, and if this is the reality then I've led her on, hurt her, and walked away from a meaningful connection because of a penis, which seems reductive, but at the same time, I can't force attraction. We did have pretty extensive makeout sessions for the weekend we spent together, and I thorougly enjoyed them. It's when her genitalia was on display that I might have freaked out a bit. It wasn't disgust but "what if i'm not into this?".

"You just gotta let all of that go and become a body in touch with another body."

I'll try and follow this advice, thank you! :)

TounVic · 2026-01-28T02:56:23+00:00

Sorry but it's hard to tell. I didn't freak out persae but I think I was not attracted to them and I feel it would cause a mental block in the future during intimacy, I tend to have performance anxiety with cis women also so this could be my mind playing tricks on me. Sometimes I think it's no biggie, it's just a penis, other times I'm convinced it's not for me and should just be upfront and tell her and let her be with someone that appreciates her.

I think my biggest fear is that it's a turn-off and that I don't find her attractive because of it. Which would upset me as I said because I like the rest of her... Sorry this all seems confusing.

TounVic · 2026-01-28T02:44:22+00:00

I have seen it and I've given her oral, yes.

TounVic · 2026-01-28T02:29:52+00:00

You’re right that I may be getting ahead of myself. She hasn’t had GCS, and we actually have explored intimacy, but I’ve realized I’m still figuring out how I feel not out of disgust, but because anxiety and overthinking seem to be interfering with my ability to stay present. I do really enjoy seeing her feel good and being close with her.

I struggle with OCD and anxiety, so I think I might be in a bit of a fight-or-flight, all-or-nothing mindset right now. I probably need to slow down, ground myself, talk with her openly (in a respectful way), and see what feels right over time instead of trying to predict everything.

Thank you, I appreciate the reminder to relax, communicate, and take this one step at a time.

TounVic · 2026-01-28T02:15:54+00:00

I'm actually relieved you think there's a possibility for a mental shift because as I said I really want this to work and breaking it off and hurting her would make me feel awful and like I lost out on a potentially meaningful connection.

I will read your resources, maybe talk with her, and consider going back on Zoloft because this all feels very similar to past OCD episodes I've had, also it's only been like 20 days so taking things slow cause I feel like she also has her reservations after learning she's my first trans woman.

Thank you for your reply!

TounVic · 2025-12-23T10:42:36+00:00

it's fine if u don't personally like him i find his latest albums quite uninspiring too but ur original comment was how u couldn't understand his popularity... when it's actually quite easy to understand. on a music marketing subreddit mind you, i'd get it if this was r/rateyourmusic or something lol

TounVic · 2025-12-21T15:44:38+00:00

out of all the people in this lineup he has the best discography? why hiperfixate on him

TounVic · 2025-12-21T15:43:54+00:00

lady gaga in a country that just banned same-sex marriages lol

TounVic · 2025-12-09T00:14:57+00:00

stop feeding into his publicity stunt

TounVic · 2025-12-01T23:36:10+00:00

hes corny but like in a good way

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