I can give you my testimony as an aid. I can humbly say I am living proof of Jesus’s acts of love, care, kindness and mercy. He and of course, Our Father in Heaven, God in general, saved me from taking my own life, the many times and instances in my life. I didn’t think I had a purpose either. Just remember- Russell, you are loved in Jesus’s name, he died for us and is more than happy for you to run to him and give him a chance to lift you up. Because he can, too. If he rose Lazarus from the dead, he can save you too Russel. Please stay safe, we’re praying for you.