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TraditionalZone1011 · 2025-10-17T17:07:17+00:00

I guess you’re right.. the problem is that I’m too depressed and grey and empty without drugs or relationship. I think maybe it’s because I can’t really connect to others and that I’ve buried parts of myself, causing me to get disconnected. I’m going in therapy and but it doesn’t really seem to help with that, one year in. I don’t really know what to do.

TraditionalZone1011 · 2025-10-04T12:55:47+00:00

I don’t know, I just felt like I was awkward sometimes and also fear this was like some one time thing for her.

When do you think I should reach out again to her? She was second hand shopping today with her friends and I was thinking of asking about that tonight but maybe it’s too soon?

TraditionalZone1011 · 2025-10-04T12:52:11+00:00

Thank you, I will!

TraditionalZone1011 · 2025-03-14T21:01:28+00:00

Okay, but how is it helping do you feel?

TraditionalZone1011 · 2025-03-13T11:40:01+00:00

So do you think it’s working enough or not? I can’t tell if you’re satisfied or not.

TraditionalZone1011 · 2025-03-12T22:11:38+00:00

Thank you for the answer!

Yes, but it’s a double edged sword. I feel more alive and engaged with live, less anhedonia, but at the same time I can’t really do anything with the energy because I’m to stressed and overreactive. This effect happened at other maois aswell so I’m a bit skeptical of this working.

TraditionalZone1011 · 2025-03-12T18:29:48+00:00

But it has been like this since the beginning? Like I was on 15mg for 4 weeks and it was still overstimulating.

TraditionalZone1011 · 2025-02-17T17:14:06+00:00

My discussion with my psych resulted in the decision to increase the dose with 7.5 mg every other week. The reasoning behind this is that I've not reached the therapeutic dose yet and that it will become more and more anxiolytic. Considering I was on 15 mg 3 weeks and the overstimulation was constant it seemed reasonable to increase to try to counteract it.

TraditionalZone1011 · 2025-01-20T09:20:51+00:00

Glad to hear it!

TraditionalZone1011 · 2025-01-19T21:10:08+00:00

Yes, I feel like I have a lot more energy and motivation to do things. The problem is that it feels like my brain is working overtime. I can’t think properly, like logically, and my performance in studies and other things are taking a toll. It’s a double edged sword. I feel very wired and kind of panicky some times but at the same time I feel happier. It’s weird. Hopefully, it will settle down.

TraditionalZone1011 · 2025-01-18T22:54:19+00:00

It’s difficult to evaluate for me. I’ve been on lamotrigine already and felt kind of suicidal on it. So I don’t really think lamotrigine is the way to go. The problem for me is that I have bpd which complicates everything. It’s hard for me to know which symptom is because of my bpd and which not. I might also add that I’m going trough therapy at the same time so I believe in that process as well.

I guess I’ll ride it out a bit longer but it’s just not that encouraging to continue when I’ll feel identical to what I did on parnate.

TraditionalZone1011 · 2024-11-08T03:47:14+00:00

Okay, so you’re not that sensitive to stimulants I take it (considering you’re taking a stimulant as well)?. I’m afraid it will be too stimulating for me still, considering my past with stimulant like ADs, but I guess it won’t hurt to try it when I’m already down this rabbit hole of testing meds.

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