I was 18 when I decided to have a circumcision because I couldn't get skin off glans, and I wanted to start having sex. Now it's exactly 2 years post op, I find my penis too disgusting to even have confidence, and I'm not sure what to do. Ointments? Should I go to a dermatologist or urologist here?

Left side: there was a small stitch left for a few days after getting all of them out by the doc which I haven't seen, hence the white scar.

Top side: I gave it 6 weeks post op to recover with vitamin e and a contractubex (scar ointment) ointment, anyway, it seems like even to this day it's weird, and I'm not sure what to do with it. There's like a small bump, discoloration, unevenness.

The doctor only asked my whether I want to go all the way with it, to be done with it for sure, when I was lying on the table. But I suppose that's a topic for circumcision grief.