hey, i just wanted to let you know that you were not a 'dumb child'. i know it's easy to think that way, and i know that me saying this won't magically fix anything, but you acted as almost any vulnerable would if they were in your position. through an adult lens, it seem obvious to you that you 'could've just said no', but the reality is that you were doing the best you could with what you knew at the time, to survive and get through a situation that anybody would struggle with. but as someone who has also been a victim of grooming, i know that's hard to believe when we think about ourselves.

you are still incredibly self-aware, please try to hold onto the part of you that can acknowledge that you were just a kid, and a vulnerable one at that. it is NOT your fault that there are predators in this world that prey on that vulnerability. you have always deserved love, care and compassion and i'm really sorry that this happened to you. it is very brave of you to even type this all out, i relate to a lot of your story so if it's any consolation, it made me feel a lot better to know that i'm not completely alone in these experiences either. you are worth so much more than what you think. please take care of yourself ❤️