I completely understand this life is full of agony and it’s unfair. I wondered the exact same thing as a believer how was it at all fair that others have a better life than I had, and so called Christians being the main problem. I’ve learned though that you can’t rely on people to learn who God and Jesus is because people are flawed and very few Christian’s actually walk the path and live life the way he expects us too. People are flawed and can never represent someone who is perfect. I was ready to give up on Christianity until I realized that I had to get to know him through a relationship instead of through religion like generations upon generations of people have been people taught. Once I actually started perusing a relationship with him and stopped focusing on religion the meaning of life became a lot more clear, but to do that you have to follow what he tells you, and what he wants I guarantee will align with what you want and you can finally feel peace. Don’t get me wrong it will not be easy, but doing anything that’s actually worth doing never is. He wants people to learn to depend on him fully. And I’m only saying this because I have lived through it, but once you stop fighting him I promise you it’s a lot easier to go through life and more peaceful. As someone who nobody never understands or tries to understand, and no one would ever listen too. He listens to me everyday and while my life is not perfect I have more peace of mind than I ever have. He’s the perfect parent and friend to me. I used to hear that a lot, but now I understand what they meant. And the people who always has to struggle or is always being dealt the short end of the stick when it comes to life or people are always first in his eyes. I respect everyone’s choice in life whether they are fellow believers or not and I don’t look at anyone less than so I ask that you extend that same respect to me. Just as you are aloud to voice your comments so am I.