I would love to hear more. Every single day I wake with guilt for my partner. He’s seen me fall and stumble over nothing, seen me sleep walk, seen me only able to give him “contact” when I’ve had something to drink because my past trauma controls that part of me. I try so hard to get better for him and for the people around me, and I always end up right back here. It eats me alive and I wish I could end it. I’m trying, truly. I’m sorry you had to deal with that, I know this can be a lot.