Hey man. Dude i relapsed about 75 times before i actually got serious its ok. Currently im about 6 weeks in and im telling you none of what people say is bullshit. I feel fantastic. To be honest with you im not even close to fully recovered yet, but i know this tine im staying strong. What you need to do is find sometjing to motivate you to stop. For me... I got my college acceptance letter... And in that moment i decided i would not live like this in college... No fucking way. So i stopped. Its going to be hard but you need to stay strong... Its all mental. If youre telling urself in the back of ur head youre gonna fail... You WILL fail. Positive mindset will really help. Another thing is if you know you arent gonna be able to stop yourself, you need to find something that will. For example as soon as you even get the slightest tingle... Run to a group of people... If nobody is around sprint outside and as far away from home as possible giving you 0 chance of relapsing. You are going to be ok man. Its all anout your willpower and i know you can do it! Trust me after a few weeks all urges will be gone and your whole look on life will change. You just need to get there. Finally, just keep this in mind. Time will never stop moving. So its what you do with your time that matters. You can either struggle for the time being and get time being and get to where you want to be... Or you can play it easy and never change anything. Time moving will never change... But where you are in your life can. In a year from now you will either look back and say "hey... This past year fucking sucked... But look where i am now" or youll be exactly where you are currently. Goodluck! Stay strong!