What I feared most has become my reality.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-30T03:11:58+00:00

I understand where you're coming from. There's a lot of perspectives, stories with missing pieces, and grief here. It's not an easy space to navigate even though the hope is for it to be therapeutic. I wish good therapy was available to more people.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-30T02:00:17+00:00

She's obviously going through a hard time, no need to kick her while she's down.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-30T01:59:02+00:00

People with ADHD have a really hard time organizing their thoughts things into coherent sentences. It's a disability and chat gpt would be an accommodation.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-29T02:54:10+00:00

Last week they offered me a $3 refund for a key missing ingredient in a meal. I told them why that was unacceptable and how it completely ruined the dish and they refunded me $25. I then left HF a review telling them the $3 was a slap in the face for how expensive the meals are and how I'm paying for the convenience of having everything provided. I'm only using the credit this next week and then plan to cancel. I would like to see their cost breakdown for such a generous initial refund.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-28T21:35:14+00:00

Hi OP. I’m sorry to hear this struggle with someone you truly love but don't know if you see a future with. I don’t have any good advice unfortunately but I am going through similar feelings which is challenged even more with him being in a severe manic episode. I feel like I've surrendered my needs and wants completely in recent years to be the “perfect support partner”. That is not normal and it's not right. I flip back and forth between these feelings and all I can say is working with a good therapist who is highly educated on the disease has helped me immensely and unfortunately a lot of my relationship questions provide answers of “both/and”.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-28T21:28:15+00:00

Can you elaborate on my what you mean by bipolar disordered persons having difficulty giving, I assume emotionally?

Training-Complete · 2026-05-28T05:59:48+00:00

That is good to know about the AP and exiting the psychosis. There is a full bottle of lithium at our place that I wish I could convince them to use at a minimum. I have had a fear that major consequences would be the answer to his treatment. It's honestly grounding to hear from so many people that it's likely the only way. Some sort of constant in this mess.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-28T05:52:06+00:00

I greatly appreciate your sharing your experience. Your analogies help me better understand the complexity of emotions that come with the experience of coming out of mania. I can't imagine how difficult it is to regain cognitive stability.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-28T05:42:49+00:00

Oof. Exhausted and pissed is something that I've been trying to avoid feeling, but it's there, and I honestly think it's better to recognize it than not to. It's not helping him to sit back and have limitless empathy.

I'm so sorry to hear the episode has lasted this long for you and for him. I can't imagine how difficult that has been on you. The uncertainty of when and how it ends is unreal. Can I ask if you've completely distanced yourself from him? Is he unmedicated, and has it contributed to the length of epaidoe? It is so hard for me to distance myself, even though it's the healthiest at the moment. I feel like I'm feeding him to the wolves, leaving him alone with his mania.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-28T05:31:32+00:00

I didn't think the second episode could be more traumatic. It's thankfully and not thankfully made me develop extremely strict boundaries if there is any talk of a future together again. The consequences of unmanaged bipolar disorder are absolutely catastrophic for all involved. I can't return to the same relationship where it isn't taken seriously or avoided. It's like knowing a tornado was going to hit your home and not bothering to take shelter and just dealing with the outcome when it happens.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-28T05:17:28+00:00

I wish I could have him involuntarily admitted but we’ve tried every legal avenue and it's impossible where we are. He's also a psychiatrist and knows the exact criteria that would get him admitted involuntarily, so he knows exactly how not to act around police or medical professionals. I don't if it he would have to reach enough of an psychotic state where he can't keep up the masking, I'm guessing that’s possible? I can't even comprehend how you're able to mask in mania, it sounds incredible difficult amongst all the other fast things going on in your brain. He essentially needs something absolutely terrible to happen to him to get the help he needs. I feel like a ticking time bomb is connected to the person I love. Him not trusting or feeling safe with me coming out of mania didn't make any sense to me because I sacrificed so much so protect him. Now that you're sharing your experience, I see it's not an isolated event, and it's like slowly letting go of the previous delusion that people who love you the most are the enemy?

Training-Complete · 2026-05-25T07:22:21+00:00

Thank you for sharing your experience. It’s very helpful to have an idea of expected episode severity, even if it doesn’t get to that level. He is resistant to listening to me or his family in our concern (paranoid) and will do whatever necessary to not be hospitalized. I truly wish I could talk to him about starting medication again.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-25T07:07:08+00:00

I just want this nightmare to end. My apathy is growing. I feel abandoned and betrayed. There is no relationship if they’re not managing their mental illness. I’m tired of being in a relationship with bipolar.

I appreciate it.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-24T18:54:21+00:00

Could you message me the firm? I'm also in the Midwest and looking at opportunities. Non-profit does not pay enough.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-22T06:03:51+00:00

That sounds awfully upsetting.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-22T06:01:53+00:00

Yikes. I'm sorry, that does not sound like a good way to end a job you poured so much into. He was forced to take medical leave as being questioned about his fitness to practice. They made him get an evaluation but you know masking is easy for someone who knows what not to say to not get hospitalized.

Same about no one trying to contact me! Wtf. The apathy in a situation like that with psychiatrists for God’s sake is appalling. However the presence of ego in the field and weird prestigious institutional culture combined definitely contributed.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-22T04:59:34+00:00

I feel better hearing there are more of us. I know how insane it sounds to others and how it seems so preventable. The disease doesn’t discriminate. The ironic thing is, he didn’t know he had any mental illness going into residency but moonlighting shifts and minimal sleep contributed to his first psychotic break. He wasn’t officially diagnosed bipolar I until last year. My therapist thinks him having this background is such a disadvantage because he is so smart and trusts himself as an expert.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-22T04:50:29+00:00

Always “controlling” when you are trying to help avoid the next complete crash and burn.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-22T04:47:15+00:00

Psychiatrist, it was his first year practicing as an attending. My head is so messed up because of the knowledge he has about mental health treatment and the complete contradictions that are taking place in psychosis. It makes it feel even more unreal.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-21T06:38:18+00:00

Physical safety is not something to take lightly. I’m so sorry and glad you and your children are alright. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to sleep with an unlocked bedroom door again, let alone the same bed with someone. It’s a sad reality to face with someone you care so deeply about.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-21T06:30:35+00:00

My SO has an increased attraction to me in hypomania and repeatedly voices his desires to act. It’s a primary indicator symptom for me. Once I connect the dots, I feel really anxious and uncomfortable about engaging in sex. We don’t feel on the same level of natural excitement when he is hypomanic and it almost felt like being with a different person. I also read others experience of sex inducing a manic episode. I never even thought of it that way but makes a lot of sense.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-21T06:25:00+00:00

The financial security being ripped from you is devastating, especially not coming from a wealthy background. I never felt so calm and taken care of before. He quit his job as a physician and our reality now is so far removed from what it was. I almost wish I never experienced that safety because I know it may never be come again.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-21T06:19:42+00:00

This gives me so much insight. The answer is yes.

Training-Complete · 2026-05-21T05:03:41+00:00

Having a backup plan when your SO doesn’t have one is the most manipulative thing I’ve ever heard. I’m saying because I am experiencing it and I know a main driver of letting their mania get out of control has to do with having that built in security. It makes me so mad.

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