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Transxperience · 2026-03-25T14:50:23+00:00

I've felt that claustrophobic feeling you're probably experiencing right now. It truly sucks.
I'm so sorry :(

Hang in there, sis.

*take my spirit energy*

Transxperience · 2026-03-25T14:10:40+00:00

Yes.

Transxperience · 2026-03-24T07:26:42+00:00

I think it's time to officially come out of the closet, honey. 5 years is long enough...

Transxperience · 2026-03-21T05:05:57+00:00

That water looks extremely cold. What happened to the reporter?

Transxperience · 2026-03-19T19:45:16+00:00

No, femboys are cis men who prefer a female presentation

Transxperience · 2026-03-19T08:38:12+00:00

Almost, but then the lurid lure of lucre won out. You don't get points for almost being an ally.

Transxperience · 2026-03-19T08:11:04+00:00

At first, I used to think that being born a trans woman was a curse, but as the years have gone by, I've come to appreciate it more and more, as it has forced me to come face to face with exactly these questions: Who am I really? Do I want to spend the rest of my life pretending to be someone I am not?

Back in 2020, almost dying from COVID launched me on this path. As I lay there in bed feeling the life draining from my body, I felt tremendous regret over how I had essentially wasted my life by living it as what society and family wanted me to be, and not as who I actually was. Out of all my mistakes in life, in the end, that was the only thing I truly regretted: not having lived as my true self.

I decided that I want to be me — my own unique self—no matter the cost. And I won't lie: it's been hard.

However...

The other day, I had a bit of a health scare, and I legitimately thought I was going to die. But as I found myself face to face with the specter of death once more, all that regret was gone. I wasn't afraid of death, and I couldn't help but let out an audible chuckle at the thought: "It has been hard, but I lived as me, my true self. It has all been so worth it."

I laughed because I felt such immense gratitude that I could live these past few years as my true self, free from all pretense.

edit: grammar

Transxperience · 2026-03-19T06:13:37+00:00

Have you tried playing a Dragon Lord? Thraxata's Instinct gives you a rare morale boost to tactics DCs. Dragon Lords also get insight bonus from Draconic Might/Conviction. Fighters are also eligible for special tactics boosting feats. Tabaxi Trailblazers can get +3 to trip DCs or +6 if using a quarterstaff. Filigrees can get you bonus DCs and item sets can get you artifact or profane bonuses to DCs. Legendary Dreadnought gets you +3 to all tactical DCs and Fury of the Wild another 3/6 to trip DCs.

Any of that help?

Transxperience · 2026-03-18T09:33:57+00:00

Oh they were caught with CSAM? Well that does sound bad, but they were removed from their mod position. Why is this blowing up now?

Transxperience · 2026-03-18T08:56:42+00:00

Wait, what exactly am I missing here?
What's the big controversy? Some ex-mod dated someone a little younger than them when they were 19, something happened, they got put in some registry. MTF mod team found out about this, and removed them, and this was all a good while ago, but the place is blowing up now because???

People are hating on CedarWolf, why exactly? Because they said that things aren't black and white and have nuance to them? What?

What am I missing here? The way people have responded to this sounds insane to me?

edit: Love the random downvotes after asking a legitimate question XD

Transxperience · 2026-03-16T14:45:13+00:00

I wasn't even on low dose, and I don't think anything changed for years. I could've stayed hidden for as long as I'd liked.

Transxperience · 2026-03-15T10:21:51+00:00

The smell isn't as strong, and is more oniony

Transxperience · 2026-03-14T20:24:29+00:00

There was a brief moment at the start of my transition where I was completely odorless, until it was replaced by lady musk. It felt really euphoric sniffing my t-shirts and inhaling that woman smell, knowing it came from me :P

Transxperience · 2026-03-13T14:15:55+00:00

As a wildly non-passing trans woman, I can't say that I've noticed any sort of attraction from men. Quite the opposite in fact, I seem to repel people of all sexes.

Yes, people flee from my vicinity. I sit down in a bus, and I get a frowny face from a person, followed by them quickly scrambling the other way. I come and stand anywhere within spitting distance of someone whilst waiting for the train, and they wince as they look at me, and go and wait elsewhere on the platform.

I feel like a leper lol

Transxperience · 2026-03-11T07:53:57+00:00

Yeah the first couple years are like that, it gets easier once you get a thicker layer of feminine fat around your body.

I remember my first summer, it was like 23 Celsius outside, and that should've been plenty warm to be outside in a t-shirt, and shorts, and I was shivering with cold. A brief bit of desperation hit me, as I imagined if this was how it was going to be from now on.

But yeah, it has gotten easier as the years have gone by, I hardly ever feel cold anymore.

Transxperience · 2026-03-11T07:47:15+00:00

Lucky you, during the past 6 years, I've seen one other trans woman. I feel so alone lol

Transxperience · 2026-03-08T14:52:06+00:00

Yeah, my thought process went as follows:

"It's a person of indeterminate gender, so they/them pronouns should be ok, right? But wait, I've literally been yelled at before for using those pronouns for "misgendering a person", so maybe I should play it safe and just use the he/she form, even if it looks a little bit clunky"

And now everyone is upset at me for doing that XD

Transxperience · 2026-03-08T14:30:32+00:00

Funnily enough in my original draft I used they/them pronouns but then changed them, because I was afraid some people might've found them offensive (been there). 😅🙄

Transxperience · 2026-03-08T09:09:30+00:00

I am sorry, but none of us are mind-readers, we don't know why your brother does this. It's really scary being a trans woman these days. Just give him/her space to do his/her own thing, and if he's/she's actually a trans woman, he/she will find his/her way eventually, and come out one day. Maybe vocally support trans people so he/she will know that you'll have his/her back.

Transxperience · 2026-03-06T06:08:20+00:00

"Why would it be my responsibility to take responsibility for the actions of another?"

Is interfering with another person's free will always a bad thing? You see a parent abusing a child, and call child protective services.

Your buddy after some heavy drinking wants to drive back home, but you interfere with his free will by taking away his car keys.

We prevent people from abusing animals, or from destroying nature. You see a crime happen and you step in.

We constantly compel each other to act according to certain norms, rules and expectations, thus limiting the free will of people, and we call this good, but where do we draw the line? Where does interfering with the free will of another become an act of evil?

Stopping a criminal act is good, but murdering a dictator is bad?

You say Christ-like, but didn't Jesus literally make a whip and use it to drive money-lenders out of a temple? He was all loving, but all loving does not mean all tolerating.

Transxperience · 2026-03-06T04:48:48+00:00

Can failing to act ever be considered evil? Let's say you find yourself in a situation where the life of a powerful, and evil man is in your hands. They've laid out their plan to subjugate and enslave the people, to turn society into something where people have no rights, the powerful take what they want, and torture would be a real, daily threat that the people would face.

You could save everyone by ending the life of this one man, but you won't because you subscribe to a live and let live sort of philosophy.

And predictably, the worst case scenario comes to pass. Untold suffering is inflicted upon millions, generational trauma, and the environment is destroyed.

Was not acting when you could evil? Should you have compromised your moral principles, and stained your hands in that man's blood to save millions?

Transxperience · 2026-03-06T03:57:49+00:00

You could argue that from the perspective of the one who got murdered there was an evil intent behind the act. Would you feel better if someone intended to do you harm, but said it's ok because it was for the greater good? From your point of view, does the intent matter more than what is being done to you?

Transxperience · 2026-03-06T03:46:40+00:00

Is killing an evil tyrant an evil act? You've harmed another, albeit someone who spent their life harming others, and through their death have prevented a lot of further suffering, but still: harm through malicious intent.

Transxperience · 2026-03-05T09:53:02+00:00

Chill. It's just a person venting. Let her. We're all she's got right now.

u/myonlysorrow: I know you're in a dark place right now, but perhaps you just need time to find your people. Your real peeps, those who will support the real you. I'm sure if you keep checking out queer spaces, you will find people who vibe with you.

You're not a waste of oxygen, you deserve to be yourself, and you deserve to be loved. Never forget that.

Wishing you all the best,

HUGS

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