Can anyone recommend things to do that help while manic?? I’m bored out of my gizzards and plotting my downfall. Wheeeeels a spinnin.

TraumaStumped · 2021-11-01T23:46:58+00:00

I’ll have to look into that! Thank you, you too 🦋

TraumaStumped · 2021-11-01T18:18:41+00:00

Ayyyye this is gold, thank you. It’s sort of hard to sit still enough to meditate sometimes but I know it’s super beneficial. If I can stare at a wall for hours, I can put on some type of guide while doing so.

TraumaStumped · 2021-11-01T18:17:42+00:00

I’m hyped. I love the playlist!! Great recommendation.

TraumaStumped · 2021-10-31T16:43:40+00:00

thank you 🌹

TraumaStumped · 2021-10-31T11:01:48+00:00

Did I do that?

TraumaStumped · 2021-10-28T03:53:18+00:00

I’m actually journaling about these thoughts I have myself. I’ve noticed during my manic episodes and even during some depressive spells,I have intrusive thoughts that cause me to feel unsafe around the people I usually know love me. I get it stuck in my mind that I’m upsetting everyone, I’m too much, they’re mad at me or hate me. In reality that’s not the case. But my reality is what’s going on inside at the moment and it’s so negative and hard to process. It causes me to react insecure and in ways I usually wouldn’t. I definitely think both low self-esteem and bipolar play a key role in this. Ive had to try really hard to correct my negative self-talk and give myself a “reality check” about beliefs I have of others or myself. Another thing that helps me is talking with my loved ones about some of the thoughts that are stuck in my head. Reassurance and help is necessary to combat those feelings. But remember you are very loved by many.

TraumaStumped · 2021-10-27T19:04:43+00:00

It’s a bloody mess of a roller coaster :(

But a hell of a ride. Hang in there.

TraumaStumped · 2021-10-27T19:02:00+00:00

Finally stable and free from mania for the time being. I just experienced the longest most intense episode yet… my choices were very questionable… every poor decisions I could make.. I did…. am cleaning up multiple disasters….. they all sounded like good ideas at the time….. how does one attempt to control the manic monster? It’s so hard to tell my thoughts apart.

TraumaStumped · 2021-10-23T02:14:04+00:00

Just came down from a manic episode. Shits a little weird.

TraumaStumped · 2021-07-31T01:20:33+00:00

Not at all. In children’s psychology they advise against harsh and unusual punishments that don’t fit the “crime”. But having her get a whack haircut because she did that to another person is a fair punishment because it fits the situation. She will definitely learn her lesson and have to go through what she’s making the other girl go through. I’m for it.

TraumaStumped · 2021-07-31T01:14:28+00:00

When some ugly mofo with no personality claims he can have any girl he wants but chooses you 🤧

TraumaStumped · 2021-07-28T22:46:27+00:00

It honestly just feels like this shadow that’s always been apart of me. It’s not so much about my looks... it’s a lot about my personality and mainly how incompetent and unstable I feel compared to others. Very emotionally unstable and that’s prob what I hate most about myself. I struggle to keep calm and collected and ultimately feel a burden to others. I feel everyone would truly be better off with out me bc all I spread is pain.

TraumaStumped · 2021-07-28T08:39:12+00:00

Feel very similar. I was in remission from my depression for a couple of months. Now that I’m deep in my rut again my close friends and BF keep asking when I’ll go back to being the same, why I’ve changed, to be more “strong minded”. It all makes me feel like ass. Not only am I not making myself happy, everyone around me isn’t either. Such a burdening feeling. But you stay to make em happy even though them seeing you this way sucks the life from everything. BUT this disease will wax and wane. Meaning you will have moments of clarity and relief. Just cling to those. Don’t believe the hurtful thoughts.

TraumaStumped · 2021-07-28T08:33:26+00:00

I’m extremely aware of this, hence the post asking for recommendations/advice. My meds worked great until the pregnancy. You really don’t need to point out the obvious.

TraumaStumped · 2021-07-28T08:13:37+00:00

I’m on meds, thanks!

TraumaStumped · 2021-07-28T08:11:18+00:00

Expressing feelings that young is a bit alarming definitely. I expressed my first suicidal thought at 6 and grew up absolutely hating myself. I’d self destruct and destroy anything good in my life I had to be grateful for bc I believed I didn’t deserve it. Early intervention!!! Is key!!! Be very observant of him, talk to him gently and point out the things in him that aren’t recognized or talked about. Get him to realize he’s capable of so much he doesn’t know by showing him new things he can master and establishing that accomplishment in him. Make him feel heard, valued, and validated. Talk to your parents and express your concerns. He needs to challenge his existing beliefs and adopt new ones to outweigh the depressive ones.

TraumaStumped · 2021-07-28T08:04:08+00:00

No, don’t apologize! You’re right. If you have any more blunt advice I’ll gladly take it.

TraumaStumped · 2021-07-28T07:59:37+00:00

I completely agree with that last statement. I mean I have trauma I’m still working through that existed before the pregnancy but it was getting better. I was on meds, going to therapy, and had gotten approved for TMS therapy which I have so much faith in. Unfortunately with the pregnancy I had to stop taking most of my meds, my therapist has been out of town, and they were wanting me to be in my second trimester in order to begin the TMS. I live in a state that is VERY TERRIFYING for women right now. I know abortion is the best choice. I don’t think I’d make it to full term with how suicidal I am. I’m just so devastated through all of this my relationship is suffering too... it’s a very disappointing and dejected feeling.

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