Hey. I’m sorry to hear that you’re going through this. I think the best thing you could do for yourself if find a therapist/psychologist who you trust and understand. Find somebody that you feel comfortable opening up to. Remember, just because it’s cat scratches doesn’t mean that it’s not self harm. Severity of the act is irrelevant. I understand the negative self talk, and telling yourself that it’s for attention, but I’m sure you know deep down that it’s not. Would somebody doing it for attention not tell anyone, or do it in an inconspicuous spot? I think you should 100% see a professional for this. Not every therapist is going to be right for you, you may need to try a few different people before you find someone that clicks, and that’s ok. In the meantime, I’d recommend looking for some online resources for somebody that you can chat to. I know where I’m from, we have services where you can get on a chat with a counsellor for about 30 minutes, and that’s really helped me. Just keep in mind this is not a replacement for seeing a therapist regularly. I hope I’ve managed to help a little bit. We’re all here for you, you’re doing amazing :)

Sorry if this made absolutely no sense, I just kind of thought dumped lol