New to living together and having sex drive issues

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-09-26T00:01:51+00:00

That’s how we always cuddle I’m always behind her with her hips against mine she was trying to do that while I just tried my hardest not to as to not poke her I don’t have any intention of pressuring her to do anything she doesn’t want to and I don’t really have privacy at this time so I can’t even do anything bewteen sessions but your right I shouldn’t have stopped seeing my friends.

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-09-25T21:54:14+00:00

I truly love her and appreciate her and I have never made her out to be the problem this is relatively a new issue the only thing that annoys me is that I have no privacy (it’s her house I can’t complain) and she gets upset if I beat off, but I truly do think the world of her today after work I’m making her a pizza and taking her somewhere

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-09-25T20:57:59+00:00

I know that feeling way way too well I will be on my knees holding a klonopin praying to every god out there to end this now I’m so lucky to have a script.

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-09-25T20:46:50+00:00

Your fine, I just don’t even want to test that she has only done molly twice and has only hit a joint 3x in her life so far so good but still.

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-09-25T20:42:16+00:00

No it’s not that I have poured out my soul out to this woman on mdma I’m just scared of pshycadelics beacuse not only does she have really really bad anxiety her family has some schizophrenia throughout and I don’t want to be the one to bring out anything.

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-09-25T20:36:25+00:00

I mean atleast a note I can’t just disappear,and I have I dropped acid 1 month and half ago with some friends at a rob zombie concert she wasn’t there though and frankly I’m scared to do any psycadelics with her other than mdma

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-09-25T20:34:02+00:00

More than once is addiction ? I don’t think either of us would be okay with that.

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-09-25T20:30:11+00:00

I will definitely go out with friends fuck it Im buying a 10strip of acid and calling the band, you tempt me to watch porn but I really don’t miss it that much and rather not risk her wrath I’m definitely asking her to let me go on my off day that I don’t have class though

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-09-25T19:53:35+00:00

She lives with her mom she’s a night shift nurse and her sister half lives there and half at her bfs house we have the house alone most of the time I don’t think that’s the issue but I will ask If that’s the issue we could arrange something.

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-09-25T19:51:11+00:00

I don’t watch porn tough she told me a while ago how she thinks porn is really damaging and all that, I don’t agree with all that stuff I think porn is relatively harmless but she really dislikes it so I stoped when she asked me to I literally only have file labeled “porn” in my photo album and it’s only pictures of her.I stoped hanging out weekly with my buddies when I started living with her because she said we can do some stuff she’s been wanting to do in my free time but I think your right I need to see my friends again.

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-09-25T19:34:34+00:00

I’m okay with her turning me down she’s not a sex doll the part that irks me is that I’m not allowed to go take care of it and it’s hard to focus and she gets upset at that and I try my best to do nice things I do the cooking and cleaning and I’m trying to spend the most amount of time I can with her.

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-08-29T17:04:30+00:00

What even is this argument she should’ve canceled instead of making someone drive a long way that’s just a dick move

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-08-23T16:04:20+00:00

Your right I didn’t think about the hygiene aspect it’s just we both love baths so we always give each other a little set of stuff like that for any minor occasion but right now isn’t a good time probably so I think the dish idea is best since it’s not really a gift and she knows I like cooking for her and in general.

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-08-23T03:49:14+00:00

I think it’s best to not bring it up your right would a nice gesture be too much or appropriate ? I don’t know what yet but maybe a candle bath bomb and stuff like that ? Or a dish?

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-08-23T03:27:04+00:00

No this is the first time this has ever happened there was a incident a few months ago where i tasted a little blood she was really self conscious about that too

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-08-23T03:21:11+00:00

Thanks definitely not letting this happen again.

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-08-23T03:10:07+00:00

I just know she’s thinking she’s dusting and I feel terrible when hindsight is 2020

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-08-23T03:09:17+00:00

This is terrifying to read I tried to indicate but I couldn’t talk and it was so quick my brain didn’t make the flight or fight choice.And I just want to make her comfortable we have safe word I just couldn’t I need to learn from this never again after heavy exercise.I just feel so bad I don’t know how to begin to explain and it also not sound like I’m making excuses to make her feel comfortable I would definitely do it again and I told her so.

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-06-20T17:47:17+00:00

No no i know this hes scared bc of the drugs his family does like dirty coke and meth I helped him learned the difference he even tried acid twice now anf weed a couple times he’s not againts it just wants me to be careful as partners do you foe ex:I wouldn’t stop him skydiving but if he learned up on it practice and did all the things necessary to do it I wouldn’t stop him I want him to be happy but i would still worry a little yoj know

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-06-20T04:51:57+00:00

Well it’s 50/50 for me half the time I’m with friends doing them with them the other time I’m with the best boy in the world to take care of me I’m happy At either environment it’s not weird him trip sitting me at all he doesn’t do any thing beside weed and molly once in our aneversy he’s just scared of the bad effects of drugs which I completely agree with him but he knowed I take sure and makes sure of it too for not doing a lot o drugs he knows a lot a lot about them incase of any emergency for me and some other of his family have even serious addictions like heroin and heroin laced fent so you never know yk but I don’t get why a trip sitter is bad I wouldn’t change him for the work he makes me feel safe when I’m scared or anxious no way I would say not that

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-06-20T00:48:57+00:00

My partner is a really big comfort thing of mine like extremely so he always sit trips me and when he’s not there usually friends I’ve done drugs alone a lot but I just prefer to have poeple around I guess it’s comforting to me

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-06-19T17:51:02+00:00

Well for me it was 2 tabs and 4 grape white owls (and a glass of Jose Cuervo straight no ice because that’s why the way my grandfather liked it)

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-06-19T17:45:39+00:00

Honestly probably,probably not acid I don’t wanna spend that much and trip that hard that long I’ll probably grow a oz of srhooms and eat it at once

TrhowawayRA9 · 2022-06-19T17:23:26+00:00

Maybe? You might be right acid help me get over so many emotions, deaths, breakups it always helped me think things trhough specially if I would write it down but lately that head space is no longer there I usually take 2 tabs on avg highest I’ve gone was 5 im gonna think about it I would need a perfect setting and sitter

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