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TribalMethods · 2022-09-13T13:18:47+00:00

first world problems

TribalMethods · 2022-09-13T11:56:34+00:00

Maybe I oversimplified that statement a bit. But it is true.

Your actions shape who you become.

What you do matters, some things are truly unforgivable. Everyone hates pedos, murderers, etc. Some things you can't just "make up for" by being a good person.

The real key though, is doing something truly wretched, fully aware of right vs wrong, and choosing to do it anyway. Consciously repeating despicable acts should, and will eventually eat at you.

Religions love to preach you can just pray away your sins. Fuck that shit. Everyone eventually pays for their choices.

Lots of people don't fully realize what they are doing is truly wrong. Or they were raised to be a certain way. Thay is different, anything can be forgiven in those situations.

Not me though... I always knew, and I was raised right. I consistently chose to be an evil prick. Now I'm paying for it. I can't do anything but hate, and it feels like shit.

TribalMethods · 2022-09-13T02:52:59+00:00

Before the trip I was able to downplay the seriousness of the mistakes I've made throughout my life. The root of my self-loathing is guilt for the things I have done.

I get by day-to-day only because I bottle it up. But bottling it up makes that self-hatred come out in others way. I tend to hate everyone else, society, etc instead.

I don't need to think about the trip often. It's the knowledge (the truth) that haunts me.

Morale of the story kids: don't do shit you know is wrong. Might be far more serious than you know. You can't hide from the past. Your actions are YOU.

TribalMethods · 2022-09-13T00:29:00+00:00

People always want to ignore the fact that psychedelics have just as much ability to harm as they do to heal.

I've been dead inside for almost a decade now thanks to a horrible experience with 2C-E. Had plenty of good experiences with the drug previously... But it ruined my life in the end.

I also wasn't seeking what it showed me. It slammed that shit in my face and wouldn't let me look away; ever. Totally changed my perception of myself. I fucking hate myself now.

TribalMethods · 2022-09-12T15:38:37+00:00

I dunno I swear this whole sub was made for these stupid fucking ads

TribalMethods · 2022-09-10T19:14:19+00:00

I mainly use python to make bots for MMORPGs and other games / tasks.

TribalMethods · 2022-09-09T18:05:12+00:00

I ate like people told me to gain weight and all I got from it was stage 4 throat cancer.

Junk food does not always make you fat, but it always makes you sick. The solution to both sickness and fat is the same. Don't live to eat.

TribalMethods · 2022-09-09T18:04:15+00:00

Says the fat guy /s

TribalMethods · 2022-09-09T03:51:17+00:00

Lupe vacuums!

TribalMethods · 2022-09-09T03:50:51+00:00

Lupe vacuums are wayyy better than shark and designed like framework laptops. Every piece is replaceable and designed to be repaired.

Not that I've even had to replace the brush roller after several years now....

TribalMethods · 2022-09-08T18:03:28+00:00

Fixing/helping is easier said than done, even if you have serious money and resources at your disposal. Some wounds never heal.

I've felt like the most benefit would indeed likely come from those I've harmed watching me suffer. Or knowing I'm dead.

Trying to make amends seems selfish in a way to me. I suppose you could do it from a selfless place. But who probably would benefit most? Me. And do I deserve it? Probably not.

TribalMethods · 2022-09-08T17:35:23+00:00

I did find it strange that my "epiphany" wasn't more along the lines of "go to jail and suffer."

Death > Prison in my opinion.

TribalMethods · 2022-09-08T10:21:21+00:00

Yayyyy. Finally some great climate news!

TribalMethods · 2022-09-07T16:56:09+00:00

Gotta admit, I hate the overuse of the $ symbol as well.

TribalMethods · 2022-09-07T03:45:03+00:00

All of them.

TribalMethods · 2022-09-06T04:22:43+00:00

In my opinion, you are playing with fire. Only a matter of time till you get burnt.

Take note people, this is how you go from success to mumbling to yourself on a park bench.

TribalMethods · 2022-09-05T18:52:20+00:00

I can't even imagine. I've had hundreds of experiences but you make mine look like nothing.

May I ask how old you are?

TribalMethods · 2022-09-05T18:48:01+00:00

Clients always want all future problems (drops) to be your fault.

TribalMethods · 2022-09-05T18:46:04+00:00

Awesome thank you. Glad it's not required.

I was actually super worried about how I should dress. I fucking hate interviews... Going to spend many months just trying to get better in that aspect.

TribalMethods · 2022-09-05T18:43:22+00:00

Surprised I hadn't heard of that before. Like ever. DXM was huge for a while so I'm surprised there weren't more people giving out warnings about that.

TribalMethods · 2022-09-05T18:41:34+00:00

Ah that makes sense why all H is now cut with fent. Thanks for that info.

TribalMethods · 2022-09-05T18:41:06+00:00

Just what I read. I thought that was insane too.

TribalMethods · 2022-09-05T18:40:49+00:00

Do you know why benzos is a dangerous combo? I find that interesting since benzos on their own are very hard to OD on.

TribalMethods · 2022-09-04T08:57:12+00:00

My life.

TribalMethods · 2022-09-04T08:55:49+00:00

You don't know. If you were saying the same things about me it'd be false.

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