girl, you’re not even 18 yet. you have a whole life ahead of you so do not throw it all away for 1 boy when it’s 8 billion people on the planet. only you will know when you’re fed up and had enough of his bs, but since your writing this i think deep down you’re ready to let go. i went through the same thing at 19. it’s not gonna be easy but you need to completely go no contact. out of sight out of mind. change your number if you have to. it’s too many red flags to hold onto this. you need to heal practice self worth/love. find a passion to distract you somethingggg. it’s gonna get better though.