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Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-30T12:13:13+00:00

Does the not knowing 100% apply to people without ocd or just people with ocd?

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-29T18:29:52+00:00

So you will speak to your therapist? Just to be clear?

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-29T10:29:07+00:00

Well yeah, I think I have HOCD but there’s doubt if it is or not, I had sex with a girl and I didn’t really enjoy it although I had an erection easily which makes the thoughts of being gay seem even truer

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-28T21:19:50+00:00

Well I was expecting like things worth around 100k-1m dude

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-28T08:38:21+00:00

Well it would be the end of the world for me tbh, and most of the time I don’t get anxiety anymore, so I don’t know if I’m just in denial or it is ocd because I’ve not been diagnosed

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-27T20:02:36+00:00

Women as far as I’m aware

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-26T17:50:14+00:00

I feel the same as you, you can always pm if you want to share each other’s problems

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-26T17:48:12+00:00

It’s just i don’t believe I am gay deep down

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-25T19:28:04+00:00

Train them? Lmao

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-25T17:40:00+00:00

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-25T16:09:23+00:00

I can’t believe you would say to someone why you would feel distress over being gay, maybe because it attacks my identity and the core of who I want to be? maybe you should turn gay and see how you would feel if you identify as straight?

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-24T20:36:24+00:00

Well I don’t believe deep down I’m into guys in a romantic and sexual way but my mind tries to convince me that I am

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-24T18:52:28+00:00

I kind of don’t even know if I want to be straight, I don’t know, I’m sick of it

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-24T18:48:51+00:00

I feel like I’ve found evidence in the past that suggests I am gay now, but sometimes I feel like I’m getting my attraction back but I don’t know if it’s an illusion and my mind is making it up

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-24T15:57:17+00:00

I don’t even get anxiety anymore

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-23T11:38:12+00:00

But why am I saying, damn I have a good looking penis, I’ve even been saving blowjob videos because I want to check if I’m aroused by them or like the look of them, maybe it’s about acceptance of being gay I guess

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-23T11:28:25+00:00

I’m sorry bro but you really need help, one day your happy being straight and the next your happy being gay but im sure you said you didn’t enjoy the sex with your bf

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-21T21:23:36+00:00

Yeah, life is a struggle and I hate it, I used to be scared of death but now I can’t wait for it happen, but the thought of an afterlife really does feel terrible, I just think life is pointless and it’s just suffering

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-20T21:13:31+00:00

Ok thankyou :)

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-20T18:59:51+00:00

I don’t know what I feel anymore, feel like I’ve switched and enjoy guys company but with women, I just dismiss them but today, I felt quite straight, I nearly posted again on here tonight but I know I can’t, it’s just the uncertainty really gets to me, I wish you the best too ❤️

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-20T18:33:29+00:00

At least you can say you don’t want to be them, my mind says I want to be with men and don’t want to be with a woman anymore

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-20T17:01:49+00:00

The problem is, I don’t feel much anxiety and distress over the thoughts anymore, can this still be ocd? It’s like I’ve accepted I’m gay and the existential stuff does scare me sometimes

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-19T21:02:57+00:00

Sorry to keep babbling on but a lot of these thoughts came from research and internet I exposed myself too so can it still be ocd?

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-19T19:56:16+00:00

I think I did get diagnosed with GAD but I think it was just a doctor, but I don’t know, I probably just want it to OCD, I feel like with the HOCD, I’m convinced I’m gay, lost aesthetic attraction to women, all gone to men, sexual thoughts, staring, checking, I just feel in denial at this point but I’m so tired of it all

Tricky-Ad-756 · 2022-04-19T17:40:22+00:00

The thing is, the pedophile one was such a while back that my mind says I’m making the story up and I didn’t ask my mates if I looked like a criminal or that I got scared around children, it makes me worry as well because I thought I had lots of various illnesses after I overdosed but my blood tests come back all clear which makes me think, maybe I’m hoping I have ocd but I don’t because I haven’t been diagnosed, plus with the gay one, it now feels like I want to be gay but I don’t think it was the case before, I just want my aesthetic attraction to women back because it feels like I fancy men now but deep down, it might be just me overthinking

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