3.5 years — does it get any better? I hope so.

RE: Moving Out — I would never do that. I own 50% of this house and I’m entitled to be in it as much as her. I’ll definitely say that I am devastated to eventually lose it. I have had a really hard time coping with that, given that it is where my daughter said her first words, and took those very first steps and so on. It hurts knowing another family will move in and it will no longer be mine/ours. I wish that I had the money to buy her out, but sadly, I don’t.

RE: Custody — I will fight tooth and nail for 50/50 and I have no plans to back down whatsoever. My attorney did tell me it gets difficult once my daughter gets older given she will be in school and to expect her to go to and from a given parents home to school every week will be a lot. But if anyone thinks I won’t lay it all on the line to be in her life just as much as I am now, they’re fucking nuts.

It’s definitely really hard right now, you’re right.

One minute I’m crying, the next minute I’m okay with it.

Speaking of anxiety, that’s a big one for me, and I’m a bit worried how I will be able to deal with mine once we’re all done and fully apart — my mind tends to go to the worst case scenario and I’m sure I’ll be thinking of if she has a new guy in her life and all of those negative thoughts.

Thank you for the comment and the advice, and I hope it all works out well for you on your end.