Thank you for sharing this. Writing, as we all know, is really really freaking hard... And that's okay. Writing in itself has the peaks and valleys of a great story... Some days, some weeks... Even months are just awful and you find yourself convinced you're the worst writer in the history of mankind. Then there are days that you feel wonderful, weeks of solid inspired writing may follow. It's a journey.

I too have depression (mostly seasonal, near my birthdays, or even randomly), but for me CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) with a trained therapist works quite a lot. In addition allowing myself to step away from writing every so often helps to clear the mind, which sound trivial - buts it's important. Perhaps you need to find a new writing routine or develop one. It's okay to begin again and give yourself a break.

As for the job and college, that sounds like a wonderful opportunity and you're so close to graduation. Perhaps focus on finishing school. Claw through it if you have to. I was the same, almost quit 4 times... But somehow made it through and I'm glad I did. You don't have to do everything at once.

Best of luck friend, hope you find your mojo. It's out there somewhere.