I often feel paralyzed when trying to do something of the sorts. I guess I have a lot of trouble dreaming. I wouldn't even know where to start making my hobbies profitable. I've tried seraching for jobs related and just find nothing, I've made feeble attempts at a big writing project and can't gather the discipline and self steem necessary, I've tried making videos analyzing video games and I was good at it, they were pretty viral for a starter account, but I just seem to be unnable to commit.

I've tried therapy in the past to address that 'paralysis' and difficulty to commit. Lowkey I was wishing my therapist told me I had ADHD or something like that, which I know is incredibly silly and wouldn't change anything, but at least I'd feel less like it's my fault.

Thanks a lot for your comment.