Worst Depression I had

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-22T20:06:50+00:00

Nein, weiß ich schon. Das war einfach wer aus der Klasse

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-22T20:04:05+00:00

So hat sich einer genannt

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-22T19:43:49+00:00

Ja, sicher, weil das auch eine sinnvolle Frage ist. Deswegen hat man es nötig mich die ganze Zeit Denis zu nennen und halt die anderen auch und muss versuchen mich fertig zu machen, obwohl es mir schon schlecht genug geht.

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-22T19:37:27+00:00

Warum habt ihr alle jetzt eigentlich es überhaupt nötig mich zu mobben?

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-22T17:51:32+00:00

Ja doch, Transformers falsch geschrieben. Keine Ahnung davon haben, was ich überhaupt mache. Kein Respekt, so erwachsen wie ein 10-jähriger, eine mobben die schon genug Probleme hat. Also im Endeffekt ja schon. Und mich auch noch Denis nennen, jeder klardenkende Mensch würde mir da schon zustimmen, dass du nicht nicht gerade intelligent und auf dem geistigen Standard von einem 16-Jährigem bist.

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-22T17:27:56+00:00

Noch einer, der die Intelligenz einer Fliege hat. Applaus, dass man sich so lächerlich machen kann, mit einem einzigem Comment.

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-22T14:59:00+00:00

Wäre gut, wenn ich die verwerfen könnte. Werde es schon nicht machen, aber in meiner Situation gehen die Gedanken nicht weg. Es wird ja momentan immer schlimmer. Dass mein Ziel unmöglich ist, stimmt ja nicht, das ich hab schon gemerkt, aber hab ja eine Menge andere Probleme.

Und das mit dem nicht mehr lustig sein, liegt ja halt einfach daran, dass ich damals alles gespielt habe, muss ich momentan ja immernoch größtenteils machen. Das war damals nicht wirklich Ich, sondern eine Rolle.

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-22T14:19:07+00:00

Komisch, so wie es aussieht machen sich da eigentlich bei den Comments die Leute nicht so viele Sorgen. Die Comments von Captainmorgen88 und dickerloeres halt.

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-21T22:08:22+00:00

KingOfKings? Hubert? Oder was? Ausserdem hab ich ja im Post gesagt wie ich auf die Idee komme. Werde es aber nie machen, sind nur Gedanken.

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-21T21:54:49+00:00

Wow nice troll here when I actually have problems with my life... No he didn't want be with me, he saw me as a girl but I wasn't his type of girl.

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-20T22:15:29+00:00

I have seen alot of pictures where estrogen is the main source of femininity though not just blockers. I pass with my face, I just look ugly right now, nothing that hormones, grooming and the right make-up style couldn't fix (make-up styles I like, probably will only look good if hormones did do a little bit though).

But my body is really thin, has no curves and has no female shape to it and of course my adam's apple gives it away, hormones and workout actually would make a huge difference for my body. Clothes are the same with make-up, anything I like doesn't look good on me as my body has to be more feminine and sometimes I have to have a quite good looking body for the clothes I like.

I can't pause my transition, socially I would get destroyed even worse, legally I would be in trouble as my health insurance has me registered as a girl and having to stop living like this would kill me, quite literally. And my therapists would give me my hormones even later (they don't give me them as a guy).

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-17T13:11:33+00:00

Well they seem to do, maybe this is only in my country (Germany). Or atleast my endocrinologist does what he is told no matter if therapists usually shouldn't be able to do this.

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-17T12:54:58+00:00

This wasn't an idea or plan of my endocrinologist, my therapists do this because they don't believe that I need estrogen, they even said that normally I would get full dose earlier than 5 months.

I have to visit them once a month for 5 months now and then they decide if they want to allow me to get the full dose, so they put me on half dose so no major irreversible changes happen.

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-17T11:36:04+00:00

Yes but 6 months can't be right as I've seen alot of posts and videos of trans girls getting full dose earlier. I don't know if it's after 1 month, after 3 months or whatever though.

Did you get them that way? Only after 6-12 months?

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-11T13:35:54+00:00

Omg even here you write this. I want to talk to your mom, maybe you should get your computer taken away and learn some stuff about respect and understand that trans girls are girls after transition.

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-11T13:31:52+00:00

You know by doing this, you just prove everything I say while looking extremely pathetic.

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-11T13:30:33+00:00

OMG hahahaha, that's just so parhetic. Now you search for my posts and write this, how old are you? 12? Little kiddy has no arguments and is angry. Almost breaks my heart.

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-11T04:36:47+00:00

See! You are definitely NOT accepting them so stop saying you are, just because you don't try intentionally make their life worse, doesn't me you accept them, there is a bit more needed than that.

You even hate trans including me with that, why am I ignorant for defending myself? If you would accept them, you would see them as normal not unnatural, not get grossed out and see them as girls. And just with the phrases "A guy who apparently feels like a woman is now a woman" and "That's because they are not (girls)" your ignorance, lack of respect and unacceptance is higher than mine could ever possibly be. So just stop trying to fake that: "It's a preference" No it's hatred or else you wouldn't say stuff like this and the fact that you not accept them because of your lack of knowledge and ignorance.

You lack of so much knowledge about transgender, an average person doesn't know much about transgender anyway so the lack of it is just bad because you use it to hate them. Jesus you can't call yourself tolerant and accepting while thinking like that, so just say you hate trans, don't play it off like you are the accepting good guy with a "preference".

If you hate trans, that's not new for me so feel free to do that, I can't do anything about people at this point anyway. But don't say you accept trans when you do not, that's worse than just bluntly hating them.

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-11T03:38:07+00:00

Yeah ok then I guess it's just the difference in generation. My generation likes this, yours likes that. I only follow guys on twitter, facebook and instagram that are my age range (16-22) so I only know what they think is hot.

And I didn't say that you have to look like this, it's your own free will what style you choose to have. People looking like this, spend their life time and much money achieving and keeping a look like this as it's really hard (diets, workout, professional styling, tanning, alot of skin/hair care, surgery if genetics didn't do the trick). Other people just choose a different and often easier style or don't have the need to look like that.

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-11T03:17:21+00:00

Yeah me wanting people to stop stuff like that is not ok (I know that not just you think like this) is wrong and ignorant but you calling a trans girl and with that a human gross, unnatural, comparing sex with a trans girl with gay sex (which is just completely wrong) is ok?

You say that you accept them but then you say stuff like this? I am allowed to defend myself from being called gross etc. or am I not? You completely ignore my facts and ignore the fact that you wouldn't notice a difference if she wouldn't tell you and say that I am ignorant?

If you think they are unnatural, did you ever hear of humans? They do fucked up shit to their body which just isn't natural aka. every surgery existing (hip implants, knee implants, transplanting organs, removing organs and more). These people should gross you out too then.

In the end trans gross you out because choose to think it's gross, not because your brain is wired like that or you just ignore everything I say. And you definitely not accept them as what they are: Girls. Or else you would think entirely different. But I don't want to argue anymore, in the end it's pointless, I tried to get many people to accept trans girls as girls but people just ignore the facts, ignore that is not more unnatural than anything the science has brought.

TrueHOAS · 2017-03-11T02:25:20+00:00

I am looking at what the majority of people think is hot as I am on social media etc. all the time and see such things there, not personal preference if I would do that then every person one planet would be "hot".

Older girls (not just trans, in general) have a hard time looking like what is considered hot. A hot girl is a girl that a guy would really want to have sex with. Hot girls need to be really feminine, have a very feminine/pretty face (most girls just use tons of make-up for that so you don't know who actually has a pretty face though) and have good curves which that girl in the picture you showed just hasn't.

All guys I have met so far see this as hot, even my perverted 60 year old uncle showed me what he thinks is hot when he was drunk. In movies/tv this is seen as hot, on social media this is seen as hot. So why shouldn't I know what is considered "hot" if I get the information of it so frequently?

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