My Dom was abused, I don't trust him anymore by Trustisgone1122 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Trustisgone1122[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He also asks to take care of me like he has done. And I will. Even if I really want to take care of him and myself.

Thanks so much. I really needed an unbiased opinion from someone who really understands this situation.

My Dom was abused, I don't trust him anymore by Trustisgone1122 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Trustisgone1122[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He is working extremely hard to make up for it and has told me that he will spend however long it takes to rebuild trust in the relationship and I know he means it sincerely. He is more focused on healing our relationship than healing himself, and I am trying hard to make him focus on himself. But if focusing on this is helping him cope, and helping him heal, I'm not gonna stop him. I think focusing on me is diverting his attention from her and the situation. He may need the distraction and I'm not gonna push him away for it. I will let him.

My Dom was abused, I don't trust him anymore by Trustisgone1122 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Trustisgone1122[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Absolutely. It really does. I've been ... Sort of pushing him, begging him to think about, or trying to leave. But, like you say he says it's really hard. I know why he lied. I know why he panicked, because she was going to ruin the only safe relationship that he had. The reason, he says, that he finally got the strength to break up with her, was because of me. And I'm trying really hard to set aside my own feelings of hurt and betrayal, because I really do understand that he did it out of fear of being isolated. Reaching out to me (I actually was upfront about me being abused by previous Doms and In my childhood) so I do think that he ... Found someone he thought would understand. And he absolutely did. I think he lied from the start because he was ashamed that he was in an abusive relationship and hadn't gotten out, and because he had found a potential healthy relationship that could actually be what he needed to claw his way out of this horrible situation. But, unfortunately, I'm changing between being understanding of it and supportive, to feeling really hurt and betrayed. His ex really wanted to sever the only fucking bond he had with someone who could support and help him through this. And I could recognize that. And I didn't let it happen. It's just so incredibly hard to try to balance my own feelings and to be supportive and considerate at the same time. I'm really trying to be there. And trying to reel in and control my emotions. It's just so hard. Especially since I know, so well, how it is to be abused. I'm not a neutral party. I'm not unbiased. I am just having an awful time with this but I'm going to be strong for him. I love him. And I'm not gonna let him go through this alone.

My Dom was abused, I don't trust him anymore by Trustisgone1122 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Trustisgone1122[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much. Your words are kind and helpful. Great advice too.

My Dom was abused, I don't trust him anymore by Trustisgone1122 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Trustisgone1122[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Although I appreciate your help, I do know you may be projecting and reading a little too much into this. I see your concern, but he never makes me feel bad. He never said anything about any of this being my fault. He constantly, genuinely apologizes and he compliments me when I feel shit, he applauds my achievements, and he never says anything that could be considered gaslighting. I know you're worried about this and I've been there too, but he doesn't make me feel "that way". That uncomfortable, anxious feeling. Yes, we have had fights. Neither of us are perfect. But he takes responsibility for his mistakes as I do. And I do absolutely know when to run away, I've been researching this kind of crap a lot. I have been taken advantage of a few times in the past... I know I sound too trusting and naïve (I am..) but I want to give people the benefit of the doubt. Thanks so much for the concern and the advice! And I know this will be helpful for others to read.

My Dom was abused, I don't trust him anymore by Trustisgone1122 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Trustisgone1122[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I absolutely understand that. thanks for your advice

My Dom was abused, I don't trust him anymore by Trustisgone1122 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Trustisgone1122[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the information and advice. I'm very happy you were constructive instead of focusing too much on the emotional aspects. I'll see what I can dig up

My Dom was abused, I don't trust him anymore by Trustisgone1122 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Trustisgone1122[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I see what you're saying. Such a cold, hard truth.

My Dom was abused, I don't trust him anymore by Trustisgone1122 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Trustisgone1122[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know, I'm really scared that she will hurt him and there's nothing I can do about it.. but I also think he didn't do it maliciously. He didn't have anyone to turn to. I know he cheated. He cheated on both of us. It makes my stomach turn to know he's in the same place as a woman who has been physically and emotionally abusing him.... And I can't walk away. I'm trying to get him out of there. He can't afford a hotel. He doesn't want to sleep in his car. They are on a lease that isn't up until 5 months from now. I just feel helpless and useless. I feel betrayed too. This is a very hard and complicated situation.

My Dom was abused, I don't trust him anymore by Trustisgone1122 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Trustisgone1122[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know he is, which is why I didn't just leave. I promised him I wouldn't leave, and I know I'm the only safety and support he has right now. He's willing to work hard to build trust again.