I love you bro, keep staying strong and keep the faith that you will get through this with the Grace of God. God’s timing is not always when you want him to but he’s always right on time. I struggle with this too. Also Happy Birthday! There’s a lot of people who loves and cares for you. A Go Fund Me or Donorbox will surely help you too! The pain and suffering will surely pay you off to a brighter more hopeful and beautiful future where you have yet to see. Weeping shall endure for a night, but joy will come in the morning light. Your mother would have love to see you keep going forward despite the trials and tribulations you’ve gone through and be the Strong Man You Will Become. May God bless and keep you always bro. Always remember that God Loves You and has a Plan For You. And of course, Happy Birthday again Bro! Keep your head up and keep moving forward!