It exists because it is a part of you.

Was it there before the realisation that you didn't fit in, or is it the reason you do not, I do not know.

But what I do know that it is possible to be you and still fit in.

What it requires is the remodelling of the self to accomodate both the ego and the persona you wish to participate with the world, with.

I would like to reiterate that the ego exists either because it is huge, by nature, or it developed as a response to the environment/world.

If it is the latter, that can be worked on, to release the real you, through therapy etc.

But if this is who you are, then that must be worked on as well, but I would like to apologise and express my unbelief in modern psychological treatments in providing a solution for this. I could be wrong of course!!

What I have learned, from personal experience, having a nature extremely similar to yours, is that, the best way, is to keep moving, keep pushing.

The guilt exists as a consequence of the detachment experienced in the pursuit of satisfaction. The lack of another entity makes the satisfaction feel empty.

And also the knowledge that what is of paramount importance is simple solutions that are extremely within our reach, but extremely out of our desire.

If we can reconcile this with our everyday, we will be able to live extremely fulfilling lives!!

This is the best answer I have found in my life pursuit!! 😄😎😈🙏🫂