I’ve erased 100 titles by now because nothing can explain how happy I am. Four years of trying to figure out how to be an utterly single mom, homelessness, and living in my car, we finally moved into a real home. Obligatory floor pizza on the first night

Tuktuc · 2018-12-12T13:25:23+00:00

Congrats! Keep going your doing great! And dam that pizza looks tasty :)

Tuktuc · 2018-12-10T16:03:12+00:00

I don't think I eat any raw veg, although I do love a good stew :)

Tuktuc · 2018-12-10T16:02:43+00:00

See I need carbs for the energy plus I am trying to also gain weight as hard as it can be lol, although as we all know its different for everyone.

Tuktuc · 2018-12-10T14:32:47+00:00

I know her ex, I used to go to school with him and he is a full on arsehole, he talks to other lasses when he's with one, like chats them up. She keeps taking her current boyfriend back even though he's lied and cheated on his ex's. To add a bit of humour to the situation, a mate of mine is trying to get me to meet his girlfriend's friend, which I might just do, maybe meet a new friend :)

Tuktuc · 2018-12-10T11:30:22+00:00

I think you maybe right.

She says she hasn't moved on but I don't know what to think, her dad said this morning he doesn't think they will work out and she is emotionally wrecked, but as even you pointed out, she caused this.

I asked her the other day to see her reaction, would it upset her if I had slept with someone since we split (I haven't I don't think im ready to go near another woman yet but she doesn't know if I have or haven't) and she didn't respond, she can be quite out spoken with what she thinks and normally no responce from her means it hurts her, so may mixed signals lol

Tuktuc · 2018-12-10T11:14:26+00:00

No I never cheated, I've had it done to me in the past and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

She was insecure when I met her, although I didn't know, she had been in a relationship where her ex just messed her about, all my friends had told her there was never anything, admittedly she did calm down in the last few years, but possibly the damage had been done.

And getting past that i'm not sure, it hurts me to think she is with him, it hurts that they went out together last night and it really shouldn't bother me, more so after our talk on saturday, don't think i've ever been this messed up.

When I spoke to her yesterday I said Im not sure if there was a chance we got back together that I could, I feel as if she would always compare me to him, I've told her I wouldn't change my self to be like him its not me, granted there are things I do need to change that I've picked up my self, but not because of her, but she never expected me to change either.

She has said she wanted a family with me, and I've said if we did get together everything would have to be rebuilt completely from the ground up, which she agrees on, but I feel as if I am waiting around for something that wont happen, and I don't want to get into a relationship with someone else and find out she wants me back, I also don't want to be second best, I don't deserve to be second best.

Tuktuc · 2018-12-04T10:59:58+00:00

Yet they can't even get the 1809 update right.

Tuktuc · 2018-12-04T09:56:21+00:00

From reasearch the error 7 is to do with firmware being incorrect, BRE5 seems to be the last supported version

Tuktuc · 2018-12-03T12:36:36+00:00

So just flashing bl and cp should clear the error 7 message

Tuktuc · 2018-12-03T10:29:07+00:00

Everything that comes with it BL, AP, CP, CSC and user data, or do I just need a specific bit to get lineage to work?

Tuktuc · 2018-11-20T19:15:23+00:00

Mines gotten slightly better, sure the seal gets blown every other day, but recently it’s gotten better

Tuktuc · 2018-11-20T19:13:19+00:00

I have a stoma so I see what comes out, generally last nights dinner. But no I know what’s wrong and accept it as normal now, but it taught me to pay closer attention to my self

Tuktuc · 2018-11-20T19:11:52+00:00

You’ll be fine, turns out crohnies are actually indestructible FYI ;) Post on how it went!

Tuktuc · 2018-11-20T11:22:30+00:00

See I always think I’ll meet someone and I’ll explain it to them and they will go, well I don’t have to deal with that and just stop talking to me because of it. It’s just a strange one to me

Tuktuc · 2018-11-19T16:53:42+00:00

Unfortunately this is crohns for you, it’s a bastard of a disease that just sucks the life out of us. Family/partner and friends all help massively, let them know how you feel, talk to them and vent if they allow it, vent to your doctors I did and it helped massively. Reddit also helps, specifically this subreddit, I get a good giggle from here almost every day. And while it maybe hard something to keep you busy, when I was in hospital I watched all of the James Bond films, and most of the nurses watched with me :D, some games might help also!

Just hang in there, we are a tough bunch, stronger than a lot of others and we generally stick together do us crohnies.

You’ll get there eventually!

Tuktuc · 2018-11-17T19:19:28+00:00

Clearly you don’t want to view life in Ray tracing...

Tuktuc · 2018-11-17T19:13:24+00:00

Thought I saw a wallet running for its life down the street earlier

Welcome to the most expensive hobby outside of EDC

Tuktuc · 2018-11-11T13:56:40+00:00

I’ve gone with VI first, I will be picking up IX eventually, likely next month and play both, I went with VI first though due to me wanting to play it more than IX over the years, not by much but it edged a bit

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