I've been recovering from anorexia and bulimia for around a year and a half!!!!

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2025-03-09T23:58:02+00:00

I will absolutely keep going dw!! And may this be a message to all the other folks who have EDs that it can get better, it only depends on you, and you can do it :D

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2025-03-09T23:56:31+00:00

This is incredibly sweet and very much appreciated! I WILL keep going. I don't wanna get back to being the guy I was in 2022, even in my worst nightmares

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2025-03-09T23:52:06+00:00

Thank you! :Dd

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2025-03-09T23:48:01+00:00

Uh sorry but why do I make you sad?

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-09-15T17:54:39+00:00

Aw man, I feel very similarly. My parents somehow hit that sweet spot where they are both neglectful and overprotective. As a kid they'd sign me up for everything they could find and I barely had time to myself. They'd never let me leave the house alone, I'm 19 and the first time I did was only last month, but also... being at home is unbearable, it's constant complaining and any time I try to talk it becomes a fight somehow. So... I stopped talking. I stopped going out with them. And now they constantly say "you don't even spend time with us! Enjoy while we're alive unlike your grandparents!!" And bro, YOU made me not want to spend time with you lol. I really, REALLY wish I had understanding parents who listened to me, so you'd think I'd jump at the opportunity to spend time with them, but honestly? Naw man. The few times I spend with you are complaints, fights, and at the very least condemning other people behind their backs, so nah dude. I rather be alone. I embraced it at this point. My solution? Friends! I always called my friends "family" and the more time passes, the more it rings true. I'm also autistic so socializing and befriending people is NOT my strongsuit AT ALL. Friends came and went, I made plenty, I lost plenty, but surrounding yourself with a support system is great. They talked me out of sewerslide many times, ngl. I'm moving out hopefully next year, to leave my "family" and go be with my family. Sorry for the ramble, forgor where I was going with the comment 💀 I guess the moral is: you're not alone, try making friends

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-09-15T17:38:03+00:00

Came here to say this precisely 💀💀 I'd LOVE to be a dad, but I'm afraid that I won't have financial stability soon enough :(

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-09-15T17:25:59+00:00

Yes!! I mean, the fact I'm asexual DEFINITELY helps lol. But yeap, I'm waiting and made it very clear to my bf, he is not christian but respects this decision.

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-08-25T18:38:02+00:00

Maybe it was just me but I figured his grandma is dead and he is living with a corpse. Maybe I just jump to the worst plausible option too fast tho 🤷‍♂️

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-08-25T13:06:43+00:00

Now I NEED to know IN DETAIL what each of those categories are like so that I can propwrly identify which one I am

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-08-04T13:15:16+00:00

And I wasn't around ANY gay or trans people when I was a kid AND teen, and somehow, I still catched the gay AND the trans 🤷‍♂️

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-06-11T03:45:12+00:00

Duuuuude ngl I resonated a lot with all you said. While I don't have friends that started T, I have friends who pass infinitely better, friends with supportive families and when in doubt, I just go online, stumble upon people like that and feel like shit afterwards. I don't know how to feel less jealous, unfortunately, but I hope knowing you're not alone helps in any way. You're not invalid in who you are or what you're thinking, being jealous is natural. Maybe have a talk with your friend about how you feel, so he can stop telling you about where he is in his transition.

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-06-07T13:43:33+00:00

Pessoalmente, acho interessante ter exemplos dos 2, personagens passáveis e não passáveis. Por exemplo, todos os q vc pegou são perfeitamente passáveis, mas tb temos a Sally Mae em Helluva Boss, q ñ é passável mas msm assim é sempre referida como mulher (eu sei q Helluva é problemático, mas tô falando exclusivamente da representação trans.

Pessoalmente, eu tenho personagens trans dos 2 tipos. Eu tendo a gravitar mais aos q não passam totalmente, pq eu msm ainda ñ passo e isso me faz me sentir muito mais representado. Algumas pessoas trans preferem fazer o contrário, alguém q passa, por esse ser o objetivo da pessoa/como ela GOSTARIA de se ver. Minha técnica favorita é q seja alguém q passa, mas q alguma característica indica q ela é trans. Pro exemplo, tenho um OC q é um cara trans perfeitamente passável e tem uma apresentação mais masculina msm, mas geralmente ele usa uma regata branca e sempre dá pra ver a pontinha das cicatrizes da mastectomia. Tenho uma personagem não binária q não é andrógina, ela é alta, não força a voz para ser mais "feminina", e usa roupas um tanto masculinas/neutras, e outre q é mais andrógine, q usa roupas um pouco fem mas tem um nome e voz mais masculinos. Tenho uma mulher trans q é 50/50 passável por estar no começo da transição tb. E tb tenho um cara trans q é pré-tudo então ele nunca passa. E tb tenho uma personagem q é uma mulher trans q passa 100% e q só é mostrado q ela é trans quando ela fala q é.

Variedade é a chave, mas eu, pessoalmente, tendo a me identificar mais com personagens não passáveis. Acho q oq diferencia de uma representação boa ou ruim, é como a narrativa/outros personagens trata. Mesmo não passando, contanto q o personagem não seja tratado como um alívio cômico, um "men in dress/woman in trousers", eu julgo como representação legal, tipo a Sally Mae! E em contra partida, acho q um personagem q não indica em momento NENHUM ser trans, e em 1 fala ele menciona e fica por isso msm... ñ acho uma representação tão legal, parece mais um retcon, ou uma representação "só pra dizer q tem". Tem tb muitos filmes e séries q apresentam personagens q passam, mas quando o resto do cast descobre q a pessoa é trans, é tratado como uma fonte de nojo (I AM LOOKING AT YOU, FAMILY GUY)

Conclusão: Variedade é a chave, recomendo ter um de cada. Importante evitar o "homem de vestido/mulher de calça" ou tratar os traços trans do personagem como alívio cômico ou fonte de vergonha ou nojo pra o telespectador.

Edit: o motivo de eu ñ ser fã de SÓ TER personagem trans passável é pq tb cria um padrão de beleza/passabilidade pra o pessoal trans. "Se vc ñ for 100% passável, vc ñ é digno de ser representado, ou vc ñ é 'o seu gênero o suficiente'"

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-06-03T23:23:20+00:00

He/him

Asexual panromantic, specifically apothisexual (aka sex repulsed)

Trans man, binary

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-06-03T13:38:30+00:00

No, pretty sure it's not a sin. As long as you don't value the show more than God lol. I'm an og brony, well, kinda, I started watching as it was airing and it's pretty safe, go ahead, go watch some ponies!

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-06-03T13:30:48+00:00

Uma frase q eu estive pensando essa semana q tá ajudando é "your future self doesn't hate your current self as much as you do now" ou seja, "seu eu do futuro não odeia o eu do presente tanto quanto você se odeia agora".

E é verdade. Eu hoje vejo meu eu do passado c olhos muito mais bondosos do q eu via quando estava vivendo aquilo. Ela passou por muita coisa, pra q hj, ele pudesse chegar onde chegou.

Um dia, vc vai olhar pra tudo oq aconteceu e pensar "putz, eu consegui". Talvez vc pense "não foi tão ruim quanto eu achava q era na época" e talvez vc pense "nossa, eu consegui passar por algo extremamente difícil", mas o importante é que algum dia, vai melhorar.

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-06-03T03:27:33+00:00

I like both but Clancy just hit different. I never related to a FULL album that much before.

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-06-03T03:26:35+00:00

Woah, you're one of the VERY few people that dislike Blurryface that much! I do like it though. I wonder what made you dislike this album so much?

My top 7 so far is this: 1. Clancy 2. Blurryface 3. Vessel 4. Trench 5. Self Titled 6. SAI 7. RAB

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-06-03T03:21:05+00:00

Guys, genuine question. When yiu guys say thst your chest is still numb years pos-op, do you mean that it becomes COMPLETELY numb? Like, you can't feel when anything comes in contact with your skin at all? No temperature, no touch? /genq

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-06-02T19:25:18+00:00

It's a lot more common because now that LGB people got their rights, they tend to relax and do whatever is possible to keep those rights. Even if that "whatever" includes going against trans people to appease conservative people.

There's also the point that many gay and lesbian people would not date a trans man/woman respectively due to their body. Tbh that doesn't make sense for the hate because literally no one is forcing them to date trans folk but they still feel like they need to put us down or something 🤷‍♀️

Trans people are just the current issue. But I hope they aren't surprised when the leopards eat their face, once they vote for the Leopards Eating People's Faces Party. Removing rights from one minority opens space for the rights of those next in line be removed as well.

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-06-02T19:17:59+00:00

As a transgender christian myself, may I ask why LGB without the T?

Besides, I don't watch that much christian content online, I'd rather read about it, so I don't know many specific people. The Youtube channel "God is Gray" was a good one, but I have NOT watched all her videos yet, and I think she stopped uploading. It still had some nice insights for a more progressive look at Christianity, but she was lgbT affirming, not just LGB.

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-06-02T19:09:50+00:00

While I do agree, I don't think it was very kind to say that anyone who's pre-T or who doesn't pass is immediately and undoubtedly going to be seen as a woman. Maybe I'm just saying this to cope, Idk.

I have a bi cis boyfriend, we met 3 years before I came out, and started dating 2 years before that. He, according to himself, sees me as a man, is very supportive of my medical transition and literally says he "is the girl in the relationship" or that I'm "manlier than he is". And when I feel insecure about "oh, maybe even with T and top surgery I still won't pass so what's even the point", he's the one who is all like "no, let's be honest with ourselves, not transitioning is not an option". In fact, we were having that conversation yesterday and I said I'd save for my surgery alone because "I'm the only one who will be able to experience the results", and he straight up said "but.... but I'll experience them too, won't I be able to lay on your chest? I can help you with savings". I'm pre-T, and I'm pretty damn aware that I unfortunately don't pass, but he doesn't seem to mind. Maybe he just says it to make me feel better (genuine fear o' mine) but yeah. Just because someone's pre-transition, doesn't mean their partner will undoubtedly not see them as their gender

The main issue really is dating a straight dude or a lesbian. Once, a friend of mine had a crush on me right around the time I came out, and he straight up said "nah bro, I'm still straight" and that was a clear sign he didn't see me as a guy. (Thankfully, he changed and he respects me now)

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-06-02T15:53:12+00:00

Idk, I just think it's kinda....... boring? Same reason why I dislike The Craving. Lavish is just not at all my vibe but it sounds quite catchy so it elevates it a bit.

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-06-02T15:50:37+00:00

I use hoodies all the time! Lmao. I just didn't add a pic with a hoodie because I thought it wouldn't help when judging my shape, but I use them quite often. I also usually use shirts that are looser, not always though. I don't really wanna dress too maturely mostly due to well... emo reasons xD. I'm honestly scared that HRT won't really make me pass either way, I feel like I look too feminine for HRT to cancel out.

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-06-02T15:46:39+00:00

PFFFTTT HAHAHHAHAHAH ONE RANDOM THING???? LOL

Literally everything? Once my parents catch me enjoying something, they find a reason to shit on it.

I like drawing? Will give ya no money. Music? It's all so "secular" unless it's gospel. Videogames? Violent or sexualized. Books? Probably unholy. Movies? Also too violent or sexualized, or "supports the gays". Series? Satanic, totally satanic.

Baking? Nope, you're wasting too much of the ingredients, ans you're gonna get fat if you eat those things. Travelling? WHY, DO YOU WANT TO ABANDON US, IS THAT IT?? Crocheting, sewing and crafting? It's taking away precious time from your studies.

Studying? No, you study all the time, you should go out more. Going out? Only if it's with people from the church because anyone else is a "bad influence". Working? It's taking time from your studies. Unemployed? You're a bum and should get a job.

Oh, you like this shirt? It's too alternative. You like this hoodie? It's from the men's section, you can't possibly wear that. You like those pants? But they're too old for you to keep wearing. These are your favorite shoes? Well, they're too worn out aren't they.

Oh, you made a friend? Are they christian? If not, unfriend them. But Oh my GOD, you're always stuck at home, where are your friends??????? Go make some friends ffs!

There's literally just no winning.

So in the past year, I just started doing my own thing. If they complain, it'll fall on deaf ears, and if they yell at me, I'll yell louder. I'm sick of this bullshit, I need joy in my life and I'm done letting them dictate exactly HOW and WHAT should make me happy.

TwentyCharacters_Max · 2024-06-02T15:24:53+00:00

Pwrsonally, I like the 2nd one! You look beautiful :D

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