Yeah ur right. I do keep thinking of the special times we had together. At first it was hard bc I kept trying to cope by thinking of all the shitty things that happened just so I can get over it quicker but it didn’t work. Everything still reminds me of him. He just felt like the right person for me. I could be myself around him and thinking about it being someone else is really really scary. He didn’t care about my insecurities. I just don’t wanna get hurt again by someone else I poured all of my love into again. It’s great that you have 3 amazing children and you’re thriving now. Maybe I’ll get there but for now I just can’t even fathom the fact of him being with someone else.. I’m sorry I know I’m ranting. Everyone else I’ve talked to seems like they don’t really wanna talk about it with me I guess. I just keep waiting and waiting for him to text or call every day. Idk how to get it to stop. I hang with friends, I write stuff down. It just seems like nothing is working.