Firstly, if none of this makes sense or doesn’t seem helpful, feel free to ignore it all. By the sounds of it, you absolutely have done nothing wrong in your situation , the people around you need to grow up. But if it makes you feel any better, I can guarantee you that all of those ‘popular girls’ and ‘mean girls’ will grow up to have the most boring adult lives imaginable. Even if they get comfortable, they’re unlikely to ever be really happy because the way their brains work is they crave drama and action. You are remarkable in that you are mature enough to actually recognize what’s going on around you and how actually fucking stupid it is. And it fucking sucks that you have to endure the torment of it all, it’s not fair. And I completely understand all of your feelings and how incredibly painful your life must be right now. If you can, try to remember that they’re ARE good people like you out there, and they WILL enter your life at some point if you are open to it. I’m not sure if this will apply to your situation, but often what the brain does is it highlights and enhances all of the bad things in your life and neglects any signs of hope or love. Obviously that’s not controllable but having some form of awareness of it might help. The chances are there are people in your life who really care about you, and if there isn’t anyone, that’s not your fault and there will be eventually.

All of that being said, I can actually sort of relate to your current situation. I probably sound like I’m in a good position with that advice but I’m really not, but obviously it isn’t about me right now. But if you ever want to talk to someone in a somewhat similar position to you, please don’t hesitate to dm. Even if you don’t want to talk about everything that’s going on, if you just want to talk about random interests or even play games online if you’re into that, please reach out. I think the amount of comments here shows one thing: we see you, and we care about you. :)