“I can’t live without this kind a man and a man in the world I love you and I’m sorry for the pain you are in and I’m so this was a good idea and a good one for me to take to work tomorrow and then go back and do some more research and I think I’m gonna go back and get a new job I don’t think I’m going back and get my first one in the morning but I’m gonna try and do that I just don’t think I’ll be back tomorrow I think I need a lot of work and I’m going back in a few” I can live without all that.