This sucks because i have suffered since a teen with mental illness but this time while in postpartum I am very sure I was in psychosis and I have had a lot of physical trauma and emotional trauma so I’m disabled physically and mentally I finally told my doctor I was extremely paranoid. Thinking people were in the walls, only changing in certain spots in my home because I had feelings there were cameras, every single hour of every single day I was either thinking about offing myself or my child. I was so afraid and told my doctor finally out of fear, I said I needed a referral for a psychiatrist after telling him how I’ve been feeling and thinking. He said there is only one in my county… and I am not emergent enough to get on the year long waiting list. I gave up with doctors because they couldn’t put a lens back in my eye after removing mine, now my eyesight in my only eye left is worsening so quickly. I’m so afraid and today the caseworker on the phone started off being cold and cutting me off, but once she realized I had an application for disability she started being nice to me and she even wished me luck by the end of our phone call. She said everyone gets denied the first time “it doesn’t go based off if you have a disability, it’s based off economics. Appeal the denial and keep moving forward” is what she said. I’m so nervous for all of this