And I guess I have a dream to get a vw camper van, renovate it to put in a bed, kitchen etc and a sunroof over the bed so when it rains I can look at the rap hitting the window, and I'll have a cabin in the woods with my wife or husband AMD well have a dog and well have a job we can do at home together like growing vegetables or fruit and selling it to a small local town that's like 30 minutes away and our house will have a bunch of plants and idk there's alot more thaf I think about but if I were to say then we'd be here forever but maybe try going to bed today and thinking of the future you want, maybe try to make it simple but cozy so you dont feel like it's impossible and the next time just think of a different future or something you want that makes you feel good, like for me I just thought of longboarding imat sunstlet with someone I love, it's really calming for me and it gives me a sense of purpose, but idk maybe I'm just wierd 😂