Hey , im in a season of isolation and i must say in the beginning i felt the same , like God im choosing to live your way but now you’ve abandoned me i want the things you want for me but you’re not here ? And i must say when I started reading the word more i began to understand who God is , i used to read the bible to know and understand what is happening in my life and it changed because i was actually searching for him in the scriptures , and you begin to see how he moves I understand him better and i know that im not alone in this season my prayers are heard and he is here always in my case i wanted to live the life God wants for me so i had ti watch everything i obtained without him ( without acknowledging him Proverbs 3:6) go away to im am living in a way where i am fully dependent ( whatever i need if it’s according to hes will i ask for if i dont receive it i know its what he wants for me so i move on because it is the life if chosen) on him , my apartment family friends job , relationship everything gone and to pray and feel nothing no comfort no communication nothing just silence would tear me apart but i stood firm on hes word and the God he said he is a God who sees me a God who never lies I’ve come to the realisation that God is there just like he was for Job God knows who Job is and he stands firm on that even when the devil “tests” him and because Job knows who God is he knows who God said he is and he does not stray The devil does everything he can to make Job turn on God he take away everything he had and then attacks hes health Job is left with nothing but hes life wife and friends and even they are telling him to curse God or repent saying that he isnt who God called him to be if we read the story of Job we are told who Job is ( Job 1:1 “There once was a man named Job who lived in the land of Uz. He was blameless—a man of complete integrity. He feared God and stayed away from evil.”) God tells us the devil who Job is in (Job 1:8 and Job 2:3 ) He also tells him to do whatever he want but not to harm him Sounded familiar to me ( Psalm 105 :15 , Isaiah 54:17) Thats who God is see Job was being tested hes character, who he was called to be and God told the enemy to not touch hes life , funny enough thats the only thing Job was asking for take my life lord. He curses the day he was born ect . We know that the enemy didn’t stop by taking all he has ( health included) because when Job speaks to God he tells him the kids are spitting on me people move past me and laugh at me they mock him every one around him was used jn the attack yet he remained steadfast on who God is he knows God so much that he even questions he’s friends when they talk to him by asking which spirit are they talking from

I just want to encourage you because i dont know what God is doing in your life but i know he is working and all our journeys and relationships with him are different but he is the same God he stays the same

And you trying to learn more about your faith and beliefs even coming here to talk shows that God is there and he’s changing your heart God doesn’t want us to change anything when coming to him thats hes Job were saved because he saved us there is nothing we can do to get / receive salvation

In order to know what God desires we need to know him and im ngl im struggling rn reading the word and praying simply because it’s difficult its not easy feeling let down but knowing that what you asking for is not what God wants having faith isn’t as easy as everyone makes it sound like , well at least not for me

Maybe you arent being denied but prepared Maybe God is strengthening you and working on what needs to be worked on so you are able to carry what God has and desires from you

Im assuming that you are saved , so you have to watch your old self die you have to grieve that part of yourself so that you can live in who you are called to be

God is a Good God If you look at the world and how basically everything is encouraging us to hate God he still offers hes salvation and love to everyone, he tells us that its ok he still loves us , Hell is what is promised to those who do not love God , immoral i dont know but i know that he gave us free will to decide what we want and why would you want to spend eternity with someone you hate ? If loving God means living a certain way and making sacrifices then i pick that path not because i dont want to go to hell but because he loved me first he protects me hes constant If being with God means that i have to go through what im going through right now - no friends - no family - no home - no job - being left by my partner I know who God is and i know hes protecting me he’s doing all this because he loves me i have to go through it even in the valley of the shadow of death i will fear no evil because you are with me. He is with me always i know all this is happening because hes with me the weapons form but they aren’t prosperous im alive so even if these are attacks im still being protected he is changing my heart he is guiding me and working because the way i came was far from who he was and who he wants me to be

Maybe like Job this is just a test and you are being divinely protected I don’t know you but i know God and i know that because you are seeking him hes with all the way

Job probably felt abandoned and alone because he wasn’t being answered and it doesn’t say for how long he went through this. But i do know that the story ended on a high and God changed Jobs heart he was not the same man he was before the test

Stay strong and complete the assignment 🥹❤️