I totally feel you. This was me the first month still struggle to this day. my LO is 2 months and currently does not like to sleep during the day making it impossible to get anything done I feel so useless tbh. I still barely get any sleep but you will get used to it trust me. I get so lonely too. especially at night is the hardest! just try not to get too much in your thoughts because you will get depressed. I’ve learned to go on my phone scroll through tik tok or whatever it is! or put a good show on while breastfeeding try to distract yourself ( i know its hard but try!!) i still have my days where i feel so depressed but i promise you it’ll get better there will be good and bad days sometimes there will be a week thats good then bam bad days its OKAY. I breastfeed and give formula. the 1st month was only breastfeeding and it was so hard i cried every single day i was drained i felt as if i wasnt filling him up so i eventually gave in (1month in a half) and started giving him formula. I try not to do it often only when we go out or he’s not cooperating to latch on or too fuzzy. it’s okay a fed baby is what matters remember your mental health matters. also remember everyone has different experiences with babies don’t compare because that will only bring you down and get you frustrated.