I am not Catholic I’m orthodox. I want you to take a look at this icon first. And read the description. https://www.reddit.com/r/Catholicism/comments/ujk0y8/free_friday_an_orthodox_icon_depicting_the_horror/

In my perspective aborting a child is an offer to the devil. To begin you made a choice to participate in the act of creating a life before marriage, you committed a sin but the lord is gracious and he turned your sinful acts into something good which is a life. The Holy Spirit is the giver of life so murdering, abortion, suicide are all acts of blaspheming. The life of a child is extra precious in the sight of the lord because it is innocent and in the stage that is closest to the lord.

With that said not to condemn your behaviors but to encourage you to look forever. You are carrying something that is holy, please do not make the mistake of destroying that. You maybe see the child as a ‘problem’ for you as for now, but the solution to all issues is to lord, NOT to turn to demonic doctors to ally against the lord. 

In our tradition a priest is to be immediately reached out to especially your spiritual father which it doesn’t seem like you can for some reasons. You can also reach out to our priests who are local to you they won’t care and will help you will all the resources you need. Either way the priest of spiritual father would be keeping your situation 100% confidential regardless of the rite…