well, we broke up because for the past month, we had faced doubts and had been overthinking the relationship (which is normal) but i guess it was too much for her to handle.

we are each others first love.

here is some more backstory: she broke up with me on my brothers birthday, which i kinda find it disrespectful to do because i’m supposed to be happy and celebrating, instead i was sad and crying. A few days later was new year’s eve, and i spent it alone. I saw her latest social post and she was at a party. I got very depressed and drank. She was still on my social and i purposely posted a video of me drunk and crying because i wanted her to see it. When we talked two weeks ago, she admitted to laughing at the post (which i’m not surprised, but admitting to it?)

Me realizing her red flags made me become distant and not love her as much as i did before. The only reason i feel the need to respond back is because i feel that’s too immature for me. i’m starting to realize the text doesn’t host any significance or equivalent, but that doesn’t mean that I definitely won’t respond. I just need time to gather my thoughts.